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  • Like others said, anti anxiety meds, avoid the internet. Also, get yourself a musical instrument and dive into creativity. You won’t be sad that you did that.

    I’d hate to have to tell your ghost that a week after you died there was a plane crash that changed everything or something.

    You don’t know what’s going to happen and I promise you, you’ll die eventually if you just hang in there.

    If I had pulled the trigger when I wanted to in 2017, I would have missed the most wonderful time of my life so far and by a long shot.

    I still have the only gun I’ve ever owned. I’m probably gonna bury that bad boy soon, give it a little grave. Can’t sell it, it’s one of the worst reviewed firearms made in the last 40 years and no one who cares would dream of buying it.

    Good luck.

  • I made a lot of Donald and Putin porn to shock the local magats. I never posted it, just showed them on my phone.

    Turns out that if you use some languages other than English, even the shittiest AI wouldn’t filter out the words haha.

    Доналд Трамп Путиннің пенисіне микрофон сияқты ән айтады

  • I feel you. I pretty much exclusively play 80s and 90s games.

    You want some fun that is modern, somehow ancient, and beautiful? Oh, and challenging, but if you persist it is very rewarding?

    Cuphead. I fucking love that game. I play it and replay it and play it some more. I have waaaaaay too many hours in that game on Steam and on Switch. I think it’s the only game I ever got all achievements on.

  • My brother’s former employer (Jim Justice, current governor of West Virginia) once laid off nearly everyone in the mine he worked at. With their last paycheck was a letter, (paraphrasing) “If Barack Obama is elected, we may never return to work.”

    I took it as, “Well, vote Republican or we aren’t opening the mines back up and you won’t have a job.”

    Wasn’t long after Obama won that they called most of them back.

    It’s crazy how often my brother and his coworkers had to chase their paychecks too. Justice is known locally for stiffing his workers, yet somehow he’s qualified to govern the state. Beats me man. I need to look at the election results and see how many people voted for him in towns where he employs people. It would shock me if he got a significant post job of the vote in those towns given his reputation.

    Before he was governor I only ever heard his name in a negative light.

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  • This. It breaks my heart that my family pushed me so hard to follow the teachings of Christ, and somehow this living symbol of greed, gluttony, thievery, adulterous behavior, and any other imaginable sin, has became their leader.

    Thou shall not do shit unless it’s Donald Trump doing said shit.

    I was warned about the promises of the Antichrist when I was a kid, and I swear to god my whole family would stand in line for a week to get the mark of the beast on their forehead if Donald Trump said it was the mark of I love religion and Jesus (tm) for only $599.99.

    They’re constantly hounding me to take my kids to their church like I’d be the one to send them to hell if there was such a place. They used to preach about love. The same church goes on about “trannies” and “the gays” and how the world is going to hell now.

    Now there’s a fake political ad going around where the audio is edited to have a heckler scream “Jesus is lord” and Harris says something like, “you guys are at the wrong rally”. What the heckler really said was, “you lie!”

    Doesn’t matter, goddamnit. That shit should be illegal. How is it legal to edit audio for a political ad and lie outright?

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  • My ex. Jesus Christ man.

    She moved in and adopted my whole personality. Naturally, her own personality was fighting to surface and a person can’t bury who they are forever.

    After more than a decade, she just lost it. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced, and you’re spot on about it fucking up trust in other people. It doesn’t have to, but it does take work.

    In the middle of the chaos that was the collapse of my entire life, I remember one line from a letter she wrote me. “I feel more like myself than I have in a very long time. I know that’s probably hard for you to read.”

    She had BPD too, so for three years, one moment I was god, the next she was sitting up in the bed at the end of an overall great day and saying, “I’m sorry. I just don’t love you anymore.”

    She wanted nothing to do with me until I found someone else. She lost her damn mind, tried to kill herself, ended up hospitalized for mental health. That got her family involved and we had to fight them for our kid in court. It’s crazy how easy it is for a family member to kidnap your child. They told the magistrate that I held my family hostage with a knife, got a restraining order, and I just had to wait until court knowing that our daughter was scared to death and living through a nightmare on top of a nightmare.

    Somehow, the woman I’m with survived all of that chaos with me. I figured she’d get tired of me driving out in the middle of the night over and over again to make sure my ex didn’t actually hurt herself.

    Once she got to be herself though, she was alright. She met someone more like her. She went from laying in bed all the time hating herself and her life to taking care of things that she couldn’t before. She never got a drivers license and she was finally able to do that. She never cleaned and when I worked a lot our place was trashed, but her last place was immaculate. Poor girl died of breast cancer 4 years after we split. I wish she had left me years before honestly, so she’d have had a chance to really live.

    Life is a mess. Some people do make it hard to trust other people, but we have to carry on and do our best. We’ve gotta work so that problem isn’t everyone else’s problem.

    I have done my best to keep from carrying all that baggage into the relationship I’m in. I do my best to encourage her to just be herself. We get one short life, and I don’t want to have a hand in ruining it for anyone. Go see your friends, go be with your family. Don’t sit here alone because I do. Keep building your life outside of me. Maintain something of the world you lived in before you moved to ours.

    Sorry for the book. I guess I needed to spit it out of my head again. I could write on this topic for several years straight and I still wouldn’t run out of shit to say about it. :p

  • Yeah but it’s one thing to be a fiscally conservative Republican who believes with all of his heart that his hard work got him everything he has because he worked hard and just fails to see his luck. It’s another to be a cult of personality republican, Donald Trump worshipping fascist.

    I guess it’s easier for me to relate to those folks because I came from their world. I (a dirt poor nobody exploited by my wealthy family since I was old enough to talk) have seen what these people believe. They aren’t bad people, they’ve just been very lucky and they don’t get it.

    My millionaire uncle for example; If I were to call him right now and tell him I was desperate, he’d do whatever I asked. He’d want me to do some kind of work for it because that is virtue to him. He isn’t a bad guy, he just has a system of values that don’t align with mine. That’s fine. It’s all well and good.

    There is a difference between lucky rich kid republicans and Christo-fascist Donald Trump worshipping republicans.

    I forget who said it, but there was once a Republican who was concerned with preachers taking over the party. Well. That happened. The god they worship and preach on behalf of is Trump. Allah bless the ones who aren’t like that and are willing to go against beliefs they hold close to their hearts in opposition to fascism. Seriously.

  • As a musician I used to say, “Leonard Cohen began his music career in his 30s. I can do this.”

    I’m not Leonard Cohen in any imaginable way. Oh, and I’m past that point now too. :p