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schmorp @ schmorpel @slrpnk.net Posts 8Comments 293Joined 2 yr. ago
schmorp @ schmorpel @slrpnk.net
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I wish my damn biology reminded me that I'm hungry before I reach the state of hangry doom - but hey I'm afraid of train tracks as well and always keep hydrated, and I managed to bake some yummy bread today that I actually like to eat.
That biological urge to stay alive might completely fuck up my retirement plan of jumping off a bridge when my body starts falling apart. I probably should make a better plan before I reach my 60s.
I have zero trust in prescription drugs and the people who prescribe them. I've seen several peoples' lives destroyed. I've seen family members turned into literal potatoes and addicts by the trial and error fuckery that is psychiatry - I know I'll probably be downvoted to hell for this but that's what it is for me. If you think someone else can assess your brain better that you can do it yourself and that the pharmaceutical industry has your best interest in mind then we will have to respectfully disagree with each other. I know that psychiatric drugs and DSM-based diagnoses help a lot of people, and I respect that it works for them, but I'll steer clear of that. If that's called hard mode so be it.
I like that, I try to remember being curious every day!
I don't watch the news at all and curate political stuff out of my feeds as much as I can. Thanks for the links, going to check them out!
Well it's the 'tism and I am self aware about the issue, and I don't think any therapist is just going to delete the autism from my brain by talking with them more, but thanks?
Before knowing about this new information I had the feeling that a badly torn and stitched together sheep's udder with a really big hole started healing a lot faster when I stopped doing (in this order) Peroxide - Betadine - Omnimatrix - Charcoal and just went with Betadine - Omnimatrix - Charcoal. It's very anecdotal data from one sheep, but I find it interesting to be confirmed by some science.
Oh I love this one! I'm all for slowing down!
Unfortunately I already played my "going to another country where it's all better" card 25 years ago, and because of that didn't even notice I was autistic for quite some time, so there's some truth in that.
At this point I can report that I'm repulsed by my native country's culture, my country of residence's culture, and probably that of any other country once I learn enough about it. So my main criteria for finding a new place at this point are "Small affordable house with a garden for rent, understand the language at least a little, rural area in the mountains without too many fascists, not too dry and hot". Let the other expats have all the beaches and leave me alone.
I guess I do have some people? Lack of object permanence doesn't help the situation very much. Who can prove my loved ones even exist when they are not here?
Good point, and I do wish I had some jazz cabbage together with the self discipline to enjoy it in moderation, but I spent the last months under an atmosphere so heavy with smoke I'm actually surprised they didn't send a fire fighter plane to my house. I've got to take a break at least for a while.
As you can see it's going great so far. /s
Or is he?
That as well. Don't want my dad to be sad, he's a good guy.
Don't bite off more than you can chew, I hope it gets brighter once we're older!
That does it for me on some days, and by the amount of likes it seems to be quite a common thing. If only I could channel the spite and rage away from the internet into real life. Found a nice motorway bridge and thought about hanging up some protest banner - but then people would read it and that's all. Need to accumulate more rage before acting, maybe until I'm angry enough to put up a strongly worded protest banner.
Trying to find somewhere quite like here but not entirely, just so I can get busy with the relocating and building something new. It's a hack, but an interesting one. Of course, on the other side of the fence we'll meet our face in the mirror yet again.
But I need it for myself!
I used to have tobacco and weed for that. Gave it up recently as I don't want to be alive only because my brain craves the next dose of [substance]. But it's a working solution and I have been considering going back to it.
Maybe my brain is just adjusting to raw reality and happiness will return, but just watching any random bit of news these days makes me doubt that very much.
I do keep Eat The Rich and Smash Some Shit as my secret plan C. Seems better than just leaving this world quietly. But I sometimes wonder if I'm past that point already and will just keep fading away in hopelessness as a lot of others seem to do.
Suppressed hatred towards the powerful who don't give a shit is maybe the underlying feeling I carry, and maybe that's why my usual strategy of being a positive force seems to fail lately. There's too much anger about the state of things to even care about anything anymore. Then again, adding to the anger that is already in the world seems such a horrible thing. Shouldn't we be building a better world instead of destroying stuff?
Best fucking nosebleed of my entire childhood!
Huh, I wonder what wrote this stupid article on this not at all fishy fucking website. /s
Oh wait I do have a solar cooker already, parked in front of my house. No need to waste time building one. Gotta remember next time it gets hot and sunny!