You can both have things you want to improve in yourself and also have a relationship at the same time. Approach the world with open arms and allow the world to love you back.
Having spent some time at a Durian farm recently, everyone is special on the inside even if they are a bit smelly and prickly on the outside.
I will echo what other people have already said in this post, things that worked for me and my self confidence and feeling balanced and happy
I'm the most clown show gym goer ever. I started late, with a huge physical deficit...
I workout in swim clothes, with flip flops, my gym bag is a canvas grocery bag.
I go to the gym itself, with a friend
Do cardio to get the heart rate up to 120ish bpm (5m)
Target a muscle group until its sore (legs, upper body, back, etc) (55m)
Hit the sauna after the gym (swim clothes)
Swim after the sauna (swim clothes)
The important thing is to build a routine, or even a sense of community, I've gain a bunch of muscle and lost 45kg going to the gym - people are super supportive, everyone at the gym wants to get better, and they love to help other people get better.
The gym isn't enjoyable usually, not exactly, but you can develop this love hate relationship with low level soreness and if everything is feeling great you start to think "I need to go to the gym".
What is enjoyable
Having a routine you can be proud of
Seeing metrics improve
Feeling the "soreness" of accomplishment
Meeting other people who give you positive feedback about your effort/progress
Jumping into a cold pool after a hot sauna - this is so good
Your saying I'll be shocked at by the low resistance deals? Ohm my god! You could not induce more topical current event news.