arifinhiding @ arifinhiding @feddit.org

I am an apostate, though I do live secretly as one. I live in constant fear

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Pride month celebrations were my go-to events in secret. My family doesn't really understand the niche appeal of the game, and state religious agents can't really "disguise themselves" ingame. But if Jagex is veering right, they might (like twitter) sell my information to security agencies the same way the Sauds/Turks did to Twitter a few years ago.

At least I get to wear my pride cape 24/7 until my membership runs out. In hindsight, It was a bad idea to assume that shooting stars/maple forestry/w301 hate chats were "isolated incidents". They're clearly part of an ongoing trend that has the CEO's approval. Oh well, there's always a countdown to good things. I should enjoy it while it lasts.

Lemmy has a variety of fresh opinions, and I like how everyone has different experiences. For example, I hardly see a unified opinion on what people think of Gen-Xers, Millenials, Gen Z and Gen Alpha. They seem well-distributed and for the most part, there's less of those subtle reddit-style "generalizations" here. I typically look for internet spaces that emulate reality, and I think Lemmy does that well.

Muftis (and scholars) occupy a prominent position in Islam but their departments often sit within the state. They owe their existence to the state governments they're in. Even if this decree carries weight among muslim communities where fatwas are often studied to their minute detail, respective muslim governments ultimately have the final say on whether they're willing to adopt their decree. With leaders like MBS and others, I doubt there's real appetite for change even if the fatwa in question is in line with traditional islamic laws.

So, the key takeaway is everyone has a different experience, and that is okay.

I see everything as a risk, since I'm living a double life. It is often that the road for me to leave as an apostate is narrow, and chances of me being free is close to none. But I don't stop there. I remind myself that I have friends who looked after me, and I mourn those who passed away from terminal illnesses. Grief seems to talk to me not in stages, but as a constant companion. I balance everything with the good and the meditative. It doesn't always work, but I like to try them everyday anyway. Good luck buddy.

Cultivating and making a new home in the Internet, away from all the usual noise. I selectively choose my sources, but some apps like Lemmy tend to do them automatically. I say to myself that I don't have infinite time and will only read reliable world updates. A new home takes time, but I think it'll pay off in the long run.

Yes. Financial independence would give ample time for me to escape abuse but alas, I'm trapped under family's false insights and paranoia.

These hobbies aren't necessarily a recreational activity. There are those who claim to have sixth sense only for them to make false judgements on top of false beliefs. Hobbies can involve pushing for wrong insights and most definitely include a self-absorbed vanity project. I don't judge, but I do actively take note of false judgments when they arise.

Alas, I'm stuck with one but at least she doesn't know that I've apostatized.

The opposite of "in hiding". State religious authorities catching wind of my apostasy, and bringing me before a "religious rehab" judge. Judge delivers his sentence on me, in accordance with his religious rules. My community loses another apostate, and other like-minded individuals secretly turtle-up even further.

But hey, perks of being an apostate is having fun and leading a content life in the digital universe. So, I'm happy living in new homes that serve as permanent alternative spaces to Meta and others.

Happy to be here! I'm looking forward to my new home in Lemmy!