Good luck. I came out the other side as non religious. As a non believer. I have helped in ceremonies for different religions because family. I will be headed there in bit because they need help.... You are who you are.
Think I have this. Only time I can really picture anything. At least above a part of a vague shape or higher resolution, is when I've recently woken up. Even then it's a hit or miss. Wonder if it's a wall to creativity.
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