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Oh please tell me it's actually in the works. I want to switch to piefed but I've been a Boost user for years and every time I try to get used to something else I'm just reminded how much I like Boost.

The mute system is a little confusing. Basically, Twitch auto scans the video for what it thinks might be copyrighted audio, then it mutes that section for you to prevent you from getting a copyright strike. This is all automatic and set to extremely paranoid because when a big wave of copyright enforcement went around a few years ago, that was equally paranoid and ridiculous. People got copyright strikes for 2 second snippets of something you could barely hear in the background. It was bad.

But the auto mute isn't a strike or even a warning. It's no authority at all. It's just a random automated guess at what companies might be looking for when doing their scans. It's there to protect you in its weird and uncomfortable way.

You can dispute, but that puts the responsibility for any claims on you. You're waiving the protection. It might be fine, but if it isn't you suffer the consequences. So generally it's usually not worth the risk to bother. But a mute is no big deal. It doesn't hurt you or count against you in any way.

tl;dr: nobody is actually claiming that audio is copyrighted, except some robot scan thought it might be and better safe than sorry.

Similar story here. It really sucks to feel like I'm still learning how to be a functional adult. I hope you keep making progress and celebrate all the little victories along the way.

If you like QfG, you might be interested in Heroine's Quest: The Herald of Ragnarok on Steam. It was released for free and I imagine that hasn't changed. But I still ended up donating because I enjoyed it so much.

Random thoughts in no particular order:

Circle of the Moon was actually not made by IGA. It was developed simultaneously by Konami Computer Entertainment Kobe while IGA worked on Harmony of Dissonance in Tokyo. However, to me Circle ironically feels closer to an IGAvania of the two while Harmony feels like IGA was trying to make something partway between Symphony and a classicvania.

Aria and Dawn are generally the best liked portable games, but OoE has a loyal following due to its much higher difficulty more reminiscent of the classic games.

Harmony of Despair is surprisingly enjoyable. Even if you missed the boat, it can still be enjoyed on a PS3 emulator with all the DLC and even online multiplayer. It's honestly a blast.

There's also a mobile game called Grimoire of Souls and, for the really obscure stuff, some Japan only Castlevania casino games.

Of the PS2 games, I remember quite enjoying Lament of Innocence and keep meaning to give it another play someday. The other one I forgot completely.

I'm looking forward to Bloodstained 2!

Edit to add one more: there's a Sega Saturn version of Symphony of the Night where you can play as Maria. It's Japan only, but a translation patch can be found online.

I see white/gold too, and this always fascinated me because I'm wrong. The real dress is black/blue. It's very hard for me to perceive that way, partly due to the bad quality picture, and particularly the background lighting.

The gold is black and the white is a dark blue irl, but in the bad coloring/lighting of the picture, the deep blue is quite washed out. Know that the colors are very washed out, know that the "gold" is black. Focus on the lower left where the colors are closest to true and block out the rest, especially the bright parts. The thick black stripe in the middle can also be a good spot to start to see it.

Hot take: their older games are better and the newer ones get progressively worse. Demon's Souls was a solid RPG with rough edges and an interesting, detailed world. Dark Souls improved on the world and exploration, but they also specifically started to cater to all the fans that loved how "difficult" Demon's Souls was. Ironically, they were praised for making a game to their own vision without compromising just for the sake of popularity. But difficulty alone was never the main draw of Demon's Souls or the strength of From Software as a developer. They always specialized in immersive, detailed worlds. But ever since Demon's Souls, they've catered increasingly and exclusively to the get gud crowd because it's obviously successful (and you can hardly blame them tbh). They're succeeding off the reputation for not doing the thing that they're doing.

All that said, Demon's Souls and DS1 & 3 can be enjoyed by most players if you're willing to play slowly, level build, and use cheese strategies. I can't speak to 2, I kinda bounced off it (I'm sorry, Zin). The rest are much harder to enjoy solo without literally just getting good at the game, as per the memes. Co-op may be a different story, obviously. If you can get into the really old stuff, King's Field (series), Eternal Ring, and Shadow Tower Abyss are actually really fun once you get accustomed to the jank. They have a lot of the charm of the souls games without all the annoying git gud crap. RIP, they shall be missed.

I've always had something wrong with me. The various diagnoses never fit and treatments didn't do much. After making progress with my depression, I reaffirmed that it's a result of my struggles, not the cause of them. So I stopped taking my meds, which never helped anyway.

At least, not how I expected. All my life, the mental fog and feeling scatterbrained was just normal. Even when starting Wellbutrin, it was mixed with other medications and ramped up so slowly that I never noticed the difference it made. But suddenly going without, I realized ... oh, this has gotta be ADHD. So I got diagnosed and I'm seeing where that leads me.

It's been a long road, and more difficult than most. But maybe soon it'll finally get a little easier.

The same happened to one of mine. The doctor said it might stay gone after I removed it on my own (it was easy and painless) but it still came back again so we let it grow out a little until they could do their thing again. I don't remember it being as bad the second time because there wasn't much nail that survived the first round, so it was really just clean up. It never came back again after round two.

wtf, they took the whole nail off!? Not that I'd really mind, for the reasons you've stated. Ingrown toenails somehow run in my family, but when I get the permanent procedure done the doctor still just removes a slice off on the side. What made them do the entire nail?

I can assume there's a lot of missing context and detail because a long term relationship can't be condensed into a text post, but even then this is the hardest thing to excuse: "couples therapy would be a waste because it's your fault anyway." The first thing you learn in couples therapy is that blame is not helpful. You both play a role in how the relationship is going. As long as they're convinced you're the main problem, this can't be fixed. It's a flawed and hurtful assumption that actively makes the problem worse. If they can't take some ownership over their own actions and needs, you'll just be caught in an endless cycle of getting blamed for everything while nothing you do is ever good enough. Sound familiar?

I'm not going to assume they're toxic or that the relationship is doomed. Those are questions worth asking yourself, but we don't have enough information. They could also just be a normal person that never learned how to have healthy relationships when things get tough, and they're stuck in a maladaptive pattern. It's those people that benefit most from couple's therapy. If you go that route, Gottman and EFT are good choices, but I understand it's expensive. It can still be helpful to buy the books and read through them on your own (John Gottman has many, and Sue Johnson some as well). I would be wary of anybody who tries too hard to avoid or discredit it, though. That's a red flag to me.

For your situation, once your partner stops seeing you as the problem, you can start seeing each other as allies against a problem you need to solve together. In the example you gave here, I see earplugs as a remarkably simple and effective solution that's very easy to figure out when you're not laser focused on the ADHD bogeyman being at fault for everything. If you're going to be up later for whatever reason, they can just use earplugs and not be disturbed. No hurt, no rushing home, you can even take care of the dishes. If that's not good for some reason, there are other things like white noise, sleep aids, etc. The point is to break down the problem into what each of you need, then work together to find a solution that serves both of you. No more, no less. If one of your needs is not getting met or one of you consistently has trouble doing the thing, then find a different solution.

You've also said they feel you don't care because of the forgetfulness. I don't think it's that simple. Obviously, I would take those feelings seriously, but you can have a healthy relationship with a partner who feels cared for and be very forgetful. The problem is that the relationship isn't healthy right now. Even if you remembered everything perfectly, that fact wouldn't change. I think it's more that the forgetfulness is like a trigger or a reminder of these latent feelings that are always there. But even if there are things you can do to make them feel more cared for, this didn't happen in isolation and it didn't happen overnight. You're stuck in a pattern with each other based on learned expectations and reactions that built up over years. Figuring those out and learning how to untangle them is what a good couples therapist helps you with. That's why their response to the suggestion is inexcusable.

I can't help with your primary request, but on the chance that you aren't able to find a better solution, it seems worth mentioning that four months is probably too long. I'm not an expert or anything, but I did look into it when I had to take a drug test. If someone has corrections to what I found, I would be interested to hear them because it may not be the last I have to deal with it either.

What I learned is that exact time varies, but two months is on the long end. One month is common. You can even test negative in as little as two weeks, but it requires specific effort and still might not be enough if the test is really strict or sensitive.

There are a lot of tricks for trying to quickly prepare for a drug test, but the most simple and reliable if you aren't on a major time crunch is just fiber and water. Eat lots of greens and stay hydrated. That helps your body naturally get rid of the THC, making 3-4 weeks a more likely time frame.

If he's already suffering through a detox, you can at least shorten that by quite a bit. Also, it will get easier over time. While weed is way less addictive and easier to get off of than a lot of other drugs, it still has side effects like the ones you're describing when you try to quit.

I still hope you find a better doctor, but don't lose hope even if you can't. This is doable and it's not as impossible as it seems. It is bullshit and unfair though. Best of luck to you both.

Tribute? You steal men's souls, and make them your slaves!

Hearsay af but I have heard of that amount being taken. The dude was never the same again, though. Whether for better or worse is harder to say. He didn't regret it at least, and seemed to be doing well. But he definitely saw some shit.

I can't remember the specific examples (surprising nobody), but I have had at least a couple occasions where I found traces of something I'd done that showed me I did actually react that exact same way some while previously and forgot about it entirely. In one case, a friend stopped mid conversation to say, "Wait. Haven't we had this exact conversation before?," and I while it wasn't as concrete as finding my own evidence, I was pretty sure he was right.

It's almost like a coping mechanism, even if I don't do it intentionally. My life is a book, but at any given moment I might not know what happened on the last page or three. So I have to just figure it out and act how I would act even when I'm clueless.

It's one way communities can grow. Especially in lower population forums, it makes sense to start out more general to concentrate enough traffic instead of spreading it out into a bunch of mostly dead, niche communities that fail to hit the critical mass required to get people coming back and posting more. Once the community has grown enough to the point where a certain type of content is drowning out the rest, that content gets separated off into its own subforum or community. You're seeing it as a mistake to avoid repeating, but it's actually a great benefit to both this community and the future communities that will eventually spin off.

I get it. I've been down that road within the last couple years after decades of "treatment resistant depression". The treatments aren't pseudoscience, but it might make more sense when you realize it doesn't do anything that can't be done without them. It just accelerates what you can already do with therapy and positive lifestyle changes - provided you do those things. It can also help people with lingering depression whose circumstances have changed for the better. I'm not saying it's impossible for them to help you and anything is worth a shot, but I would emphasize that you get what you put in and if your circumstances are a big contributor (like they are for many of us) it's going to be an uphill battle.

Shrooms have high potential and they're honestly easier to get. But mindset is still important. For some people, it's a one and done cure. For many, they need to re dose every few months. For very few, they convince themselves they've messed it up and make things worse. They hold the potential for radical shifts in perspective like you never imagined, but only if you're ready.

TMS and ketamine work by increasing neuroplasticity. Your provider should tell you: the day of and after treatment, avoid things that are stressful and upsetting. Stay off social media, or make sure the media you do use is a carefully curated feed with positivity and things like cute animal pictures. Unfortunately, in my experience, many providers are not great about giving you this information. They lead you to believe you can just go get drugged up or zapped with magnets and magically get better. It doesn't work like that. It makes your brain more flexible so you can break old thought patterns and develop new ones. If you just feed yourself stress and ragebait during the most critical periods, it is far less likely to help.

Shrooms are different. The mechanisms are less well understood because political fuckery has set research back over half a century, but neuroplasticity is likely only a fraction of it. They also break down barriers, create new associations, suppress the ego, and enhance social connections. It is ... an unforgettable experience. I can't say it's for everybody because mindset is so important. But for anyone who is really ready to take control of their depression, I think shrooms make ketamine seem like a complete waste of time and money.

It's the truth. Former domestic policy chief for the Nixon White House, John Ehrlichman, spoke out about it years after the fact:

“You understand what I’m saying? We knew we couldn’t make it illegal to be either against the war or black, but by getting the public to associate the hippies with marijuana and blacks with heroin. And then criminalizing both heavily, we could disrupt those communities,” Ehrlichman said. “We could arrest their leaders. raid their homes, break up their meetings, and vilify them night after night on the evening news. Did we know we were lying about the drugs? Of course we did.”

Psychedelics were criminalized in the US to target anti-war protesters. This is in the open and on the record, but they're still classified as a Schedule I drug: no currently accepted medical use and a high potential for abuse. Neither of those things are true. It's completely fucked up.