Stop thinking about falling asleep. With your inner voice tell yourself you're going to stay up all night. Close your eyes, relax, lie still, and tell yourself that you're going to stay up all night; you'll pass out after a while.
Also invest in a high quality white noise generator or weighted blanket.
Hey fun fact I actually confirmed chicuahtli is the barred owl in Nahuatl after finding the word chichtli for barn owl.
It's still a mess online sorting it out when doing searches for it and I haven't cross referenced versus other dialects.
Regardless keep posting owl pics. I've been doing Codex research for fun and found a good source for images. I'll start keeping note of where I find owls and reach out later.
One day a couple of months after World of Warcraft Burning Crusade came out I was woken up by my friends playing the game. I had left on either Teamspeak or Ventrilo the night before and about 3-4 friends jumped on the following morning. I signed on soon after that and played for hours.
I think that's the last time I've been woken up by people whom I like and immediately began the day with a group activity that involved joy.
Because the instance is dedicated to pictures of owls and it delivers on that mission. I don't even like owls all that much, but it's like one the last few consistent things in my life.
I'm a white dude that's obsessed with Mesoamerican history. Holy fuck I would prefer the civilization your ancestors would come up with than what my idiot dirt farmer progenitors from Europe ended up creating.
I want to be able to remove my body parts and put them back without harming myself. That's old school sorcery skills.