Killer Klowns from Outer Space. I was in kindergarten and had a very inattentive babysitter.
Boy, that movie will seriously stick with you when your typical fare was Barney related. It's really the grounding for me having any memories of that period of my life at this point, lol.
Real talk, as a kid Final Fantasy Legend on the Game Boy is how I got exposed to this kind of thinking, and the implications have lived rent free in my head to this day.
It's a bit on the nose, but that kinda lends itself to a kid picking up on it.
Here's my take - if there's any merit to the heaven and hell stuff, it's purely in the last minutes of you actually dying (assuming a not-sudden death). Something your brain might conjure up before you go, premised on your remaining memories and attitudes towards life. If you mostly feel guilt about what you've done in your life, it will probably be an experience akin to hell. Joy, and a bittersweet sadness about leaving this world? Probably closer to heaven. And perhaps many various experiences in between that don't neatly map to this. All mostly a play of the last final, firing synapses before the curtain falls.
If we take this approach, what does it say about living? Well, I'd say that it's important to live as fully and well as you can. Do good things. Make good connections with other humans and love people worth loving. Help people out. Have a laugh, read a good book once and a while. Live a life that, when it's all said and done, has honestly good material to draw from in those final moments before oblivion.
I want to stress this - you are not a coward. You have to do what is necessary to survive.
There's good advice in this thread - do what you can to set up an exit strategy, and exit ASAP once you have arranged safeguards to support your survival. The earlier the better, but if it takes time to do successfully, take that time.
You are not weak. You are not worthless. You are not beholden to this man for your long-term survival, even if it's necessary for the short-term. If you so choose, when you leave he will never see you again and die alone and forgotten. The only purpose his memory should serve in that case is as an example of what not to do, or how to live your life. Survive and seek out as much joy as this world makes available, so you can dance on his grave and empty your bladder on it before leaving it to decay.
I'm so, so sorry you're going through this - but it is not permanent. Please remember this.
I'll take "Things that get your sperm donor's favourite food items tainted" for $500, Alex.
Fuck this asshole. Bide your time until you can GTFO, then GTFO and don't look back. Sorry to hear the guy who contributed to your embryonic stage is a pencil dicked twat. "Sir" - fuck you.
Sorry, people like this really rub me the wrong way, all the more so when the target of this crap isn't someone physically strong enough to make them lose some teeth (no fault of your own, and it's a hard thing to punch your biocontributor in the mouth anyway).
Do they still have that Kirkland brand vodka? This was another fascinating little tidbit when I visited the U.S. last (and since I'll probably never go again I'm curious).
Grandparents spending their evenings getting loaded on no-name vodka and Fox News. It was really depressing.
Real talk: I've been using YouTube without an account and with some ad blocking stuff installed. Based on what I'm seeing, I'm pretty sure the algorithm's datapoint for me is "He was born with a penis and is ok with that."
When I lose my better judgement and start scrolling shorts like an idiot, It is fight videos (IRL, movie scenes, UFC and boxing), auditing, Charlie Kirk and right-wing influencers, and the occasional clip from Shoresy on the basis "He might be Canadian too, idk".
It is noticibly weird, and I have brought it up to my kid who uses an account, is not what Youtube believes me to be, and whose shorts feed is very different.
We do both get that guy who opens Pokemon cards with a catchy jingle, though.
I like the idea of PeerTube and hope it catches on, but I wouldn't call it a YouTube replacement at this point. There are services that feed youtube content to users remotely though (there is/was a link-converter bot that went around that annoyed some people here, but a) can't remember the name, and b) can't remember the actual software involved).
I'd support it. If something is worthy of drawing attention to, it's worth taking a screenshot and sharing that - preferably with a backup to Wayback Machine.
There's no need to drive traffic to or engagement with X imo, even if it's relatively minimal.
Same for Meta products really, though idk if Instagram has some defense against screenshots (I know there's other photo-focused services that do, I'm just not on Instagram very often/recently at all so idk).
Edit: You know, given the existence of xcancel and similar services, I want to walk this back a little. People are in here making good points - screenshots can be doctored, and having access to a trusted mirrored/archived source is better for verification purposes while still accomplishing what I'd like to see. If it's technically possible to do, some automatic means of doing that would be cool, but even that's a bit iffy. Maybe something like that Pipedbot thing could work, even if people kinda hate those bots. Best choice is just posting mirrored/archive links from the get go.
See, everyone is coming in and talking about different means of measuring instances, the implications for the fediverse and the position of federated services against corporate monoliths like reddit.
Darkness as your eyes close -> Probably some cool shit as your brain functions start shutting down -> literally nothing.