Alice @ Alice @beehaw.org

Unfortunately alive. USAmerican, gay

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Oh, same. I cook at home 99% of the time, but sometimes I get a bad week. Lots of overtime, visiting a sick relative every day, something to throw off my schedule.

Those weeks I'm bringing home fast food almost every day and I probably look like I've never even seen a kitchen before.

Walking my cat.

My neighbors and I never talk, and I can't tell if it's because they're antisocial, or they think I'm antisocial. I wake up at 5am for the gym, go to work, and get home at 6 or later, at which point I'm tired and go straight inside. By the time I even saw one of my neighbors, I'd lived there so long I felt weird suddenly introducing myself.

It's worse now that I've started walking the cat because when people are out and about, she gets tense so all my attention is on her, not making eye contact or small talk with anyone, so I look even more antisocial now.

When other people get really involved in their pet's enrichment, I think it's great. When I do it I think I'm a little weirdo who everyone ignores.

I just feel emotionally fragile. My friend who told me we were through changed his mind and apologized. I understand what he's going through because I've been there too, but I can't shake the feeling everyone's a step away from dropping me. He can apologize for shutting me down and explain how he actually meant it kindly, but I still feel like the most annoying person on the planet.

I have a D&D game with a new group coming up, as well as a queer matchmaking event. The thought of both are making me kind of sick. I've had multiple friendships end in a slow drama spiral. I read so much about conflict resolution and de-escalation and still, I say my piece and the other person starts ranting about how much they hate themselves and how they shouldn't be my friend.

I just keep missing how my friend group used to be. After the vaccine became available in the US, we all took a big trip together and it was one of the nicest memories of my life. We talked about doing more trips in the future. Now I don't know where I stand with any of them.

I'll probably suck it up but I'm tempted to cancel both events. I really want companionship but I can only imagine myself ruining people's self esteem.

Specifically, if your chip was registered through Save This Life, the information is no longer accessible. They shut their doors with no warning.

Not to be a killjoy but they're such delicate creatures and people keep giving them to children while doing zero research about their needs. No wonder they keep dying weird deaths. 😭

Did not know anything was happening

boycotting

Not a woman, but I know an agender person who's super hyped to get facial hair.

Fun fact, that was never a "me vs other girls" meme. The artist is into a fetish called bimbofication. They drew a reverse bimbofication sequence as a joke and it broke containment.

Pipepipe is still working for me, at least. Revanced worked last I checked, it's just a bitch to update, which is why I switched.

Newpipe, Pipepipe, Tubular, Revanced, a half-decent adblocker........

I've lived in Tennessee all my life. It's completely stifling. Spent my whole life feeling like I'd been shoved in a tiny box with no air holes. But it's gorgeous out here, and I love the mountains, and if I leave, that means one other queer person feels a little more stifled. Why do homophobes get to keep the mountains, anyway? So I stayed.

Even I'm thinking about kissing this country goodbye. Goddamn.

Completely sad. Honestly crying all the time because I feel like I can't do anything. Everyone keeps telling me to connect with local orgs but all their initiatives are like... The equivalent of planting a tree to try to save the environment.

Playing by the rules is useless because my reps are evil. Breaking the rules is also pointless— let's say you murder a CEO responsible for millions of deaths, he's quickly replaced and the machine keeps churning and you martyred yourself for nothing.

I can't buy the "surviving is resistance" shit anymore because my survival is built on the suffering of others who were helpless to change things before me. Food picked by slaves and an apartment built on stolen land. I'm not the problem but I'm not the solution either, I'm just part of a hateful machine.

All threaten the oldest hierarchy of all: man over woman.

Pretty much this. I remember being a teenager and hearing the most basic watered-down gender theory and being really confused and upset. Even back then I knew it was because, for it to be true, it meant a lot of things I take for granted about society were actually totally irrelevant. Unfortunately some people don't ever have to confront their cognitive dissonance, they just use their money and power to enforce the status quo they're used to.

Jk Rowling is a second wave feminist and she’s big mad that people without vaginas can call themselves women and be in women’s spaces.

Unfortunately you could have the best neo-vagina money could buy and terfs would still find an excuse to exclude you. It's not truly about genitalia, it's about being trans.

Heaven. Or just the idea that some part of the consciousness outlives the body. I really hate that this is all I get, there's so much I'll never get to do just because my parents decided when I was too young to decide for myself.

I work for a big corp that already ignores their own regulations :) I'll start opening products, pissing in them, and putting them back on the shelf. It won't help anything but I'll personally enjoy it

Thanks! Unfortunately I tried it in the past and it didn't work for me. And things that do work just lead to me picking/chewing elsewhere. I probably need to deal with the anxiety itself rather than the symptoms.

At this point I just hope I die before it gets too much worse. Spring and summer make me horribly depressed because they're so much different than they were when I was a kid.

I at least like audio with the display.

I don't remember a single thing I did this week. Work and bite my nails, I guess.

I was gonna say I've never even heard of a local protest but I actually found one through Lemmy. There's a single post buried in the subreddit naming the organizer and it's a suspended account. I've seen three or four different start times and two different addresses. It's at the capital building, how many of those do they think we have?

Is this how it's normally done? Is this worth losing my job for? I don't want to be a coward but I don't want to lose my home and have it turn out this was a prank.

I'm worried this will be a mess. On the subreddit everyone is discussing wearing blue and the US flag and I've only seen one person pointing out that none of this is practical for a protest, and no one is listening.

I know I need to be more politically involved but I wonder if it'd be better not to risk my job so I can at least donate to causes that might be more effective. But I've also never seen a proper protest so maybe this is normal? What are y'all's thoughts?

ETA the user listed as the organizer for my state is suspended from Reddit, no other contact

ETA II: yeahhhh I've seen three different start times for my state. I wonder if the reason I never hear about protests around here is we're all stupid

ETA III: the person saying they'll DM people the signal link for my state never got back to me. Is this normal? I thought protests were supposed to be more coordinated but I've also never seen one local to me so I might be wrong.