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It's a useful image

I bet she's thinking about a career change, if she hasn't done it already.

Greatest villain, also transition goals

I'd be more open to the idea if it were made by literally anyone else and was an entirely local process

I love this. I've never heard of or seen it before, but now I want to

I don't get enjoyment from a tragic event occurring. And I disagree with your definition of morbid curiosity.

If you actually read what I wrote, you'll see that I'm saying I enjoy being scared, not watching people die. The whole point of the "Roy" thing is that nobody is ever actually in danger. What I'm wanting is an artificial way to experience things like that, which would satiate my curiosity, morbid and otherwise, and gives me the nightmare experience at the same time.

Thanks for the recommendations ;3

The Roy thing is maybe pushing a little into weird.

That's good to know lol. And tbf it is probably a shortsighted desire considering the potential psychological damage.

It's just that the nightmares I've had where I'm facing inevitable death have been super interesting to me in retrospect, so I figure something akin to Roy would just be that but I have full control over my mind and body.

I guess maybe I'd view your desire as those kids on Tiktok that were mimicking/cosplaying mental illness, autism, & Tourettes syndrome

I don't use TikTok but when I was in grade school I'd see other kids do this, and yeah it's pretty cringe worthy. I think we're on the same page there.

And I definitely don't want PTSD. Sorry if it came across that way. But I think I see what you're saying, and maybe I'm overestimating my mental fortitude. I guess I figured I'd be able to adequately process it if I realized afterwards that none of it was real.

It really stems from curiosity about the facts. But when that curiosity turns to morbid curiosity, a lot of my questions can't be answered, so it seems to me that the only way to satiate that curiosity is to artificially experience the event first hand through something akin to Rick and Morty's Roy game. But obviously that's impossible, so all I have is my imagination.

I do have ADHD lol. Most of the time I have these sorts of thoughts, it's while daydreaming or spacing out

FWIW it's far from my main interest or anything. It's just a mood I get into every so often. I doubt it's something that really shows in my personality, but whenever it comes up I definitely am more interested in tragic news than anyone I know.

I just remembered something that makes me think it runs in my family. My dumbass step brother shot himself through the hand while playing with a gun, and when my mom was telling me about it she excitedly said "you wanna see the bullet hole? :D" and I was like "fuck yeah I do" lmao. It's not exactly tragic but kinda still morbid to some degree

That's why murder shows are so popular

That's a good point. I suppose what I'm interested in is the same thing, just in a less mainstream format.

I've been thinking about getting a therapist for unrelated reasons, and I agree it's probably a good idea to bring it up just in case.

I suppose so. I've never been very big on them tbh, but maybe that's because I haven't found the good ones. Some of the Saw movies were pretty good though.

What I find really compelling, though, is knowing it's the real world I'm seeing. Maybe it comes from growing up so sheltered. Like maybe subconsciously I want to get a feel of how cruel the world can be and what I may have to deal with if I'm unlucky.

Thanks for the honesty lol 😅

Sounds like an OSHA violation

Horn...que?

Fixed it for you

c/UselessNoOne

Ice is cold

I may not know why this beef started but I sure am enjoying it

"Being a grownup, I spend no time thinking about media or hobbies. Real adults watch paint dry and mow the lawn 🤓☝️"