6mo ago

What’s the most disruptive/derailing thing you’ve experienced in a relationship?

I have some issues. I ignore most of them and cry when I want to. Is it healthy? Fuck no. But it keeps me going!

Today I’m soliciting feelings because I’m ultra disappointed that the person I thought wanted to shape their life to be with me, to match the shaping I’ve done to accomodate them, really only wants compromise when it’s mine! Super fun! We were looking at building a life and now I get to figure out how to do the big life goal things I want on my own! Super!

So, beehaw, what’s the most painful relationship thing you’ve been through? Bonus points if it totally upended your life plans. Extra bonus if they said they were “doing it for you”.

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My wife of 9 years recently left me to move back to her home country after I suggested we purchase a house together. Single and alone at 30 but could be much worse.
- I am super sorry to hear that friend. I’m almost 40 and in largely the same boat other than the whole different country thing, so I feel that quite heavily.
  At least you have more than enough time to come back from it and whatever.. not that it helps right now of course, nothing does.
  -hugs from a stranger-
  
  Thanks. I'm not totally in pain anymore though and looking to buy a condo and enjoy my own company for a while. It's pretty refreshing not dealing with the bullshit that comes along with a relationship and just focus on myself for once.
He liked to trigger my ptsd, I dissociate and basically allow anything to happen to me. When I came back to the world he always went over the top with trying to comfort me. Eventually I started trying to escape the relationship, applying to college and I was gifted a service dog. His response was to start following me around the apartment, pointing his gun at my dog or me, sometimes cocking it.
I had a dramatic escape, and looked over my shoulder for years afterwards. It took four more years for me to start college and buy a house. I actually haven't had a serious relationship since then, and I think I'm okay with that.
I have a pretty fucked-up thing of my own doing, that happened out of gross misunderstandings combined with being young. I heavily regret it, and when I realized it, I was trying my best to make up for it, but it's still unforgivable.
My first relationship was amazing, and since it was a girl from a larger and tight-knit familly (middle of 9 children, we were around 15), I spent a lot of time with them and the time with them was the best part of my life so far. But, being pretty close, they playfully insulted each other, with creative insults being basically a norm and a form of affection. It was fun, but it normalized a behavior that doesn't really translate well outside of that group of friends.
I was also at the time really interested in the whole decadence, from Oscar Wilde to Huysmans, Baudelaire, Rimbaut and the bunch, their lifestyle and pose resonated with me. And for my next relationship, at around 19, this led to a pretty awful catastrophe of a relationship. I met someone with similar interests, and we eventually developed a relationship based on exactly that pose. Lots of alcohol, grand gestures, lot of arguing but then making it up. It was theatrical, we were basically imitating relationships as we saw in the likes of Total Eclipse (Verlain vs. Rimbaud, it's... not exactly healthy). We were awfull to eachother, but it was all just a part of a consensual game that sprung from the art we were both so obsessed about. We both are nice, non-confrontional people, I'm sure it didn't stem from some kind of sadistic desire to hurt on anyone's part, the relationships both of us had before and after that attest to that. But we were young, and trying to impress eachother, and we started taking it too far. It basically turned into a full-fledged abusive relationship. Or rather, the nights were like something out of a Wilde's novel, full of absinthe, fighting and make-up sex, and mornings were compensating for it with a loving and caring relationship, but it all started as a consensual game and a pose we both were ok with.
Eventually, it turned out that one side isn't really as ok with it as it seemed. When that realization drawn on me, I was horrified. It was all good fun, we were living the live from the art we so loved, but it was never about seriously hurting or abusing the other one. When I found out, I immediately stopped it and we have tried for the next year to make up for it. It was a loving and caring relationship, we were nice to each other and I was doing my best to make her life better - not because I was trying to make up for it, but because that's how we both do all of our relationships. We were happy for a while, but it didn't last long, because some abuse you can never make up for.
I beat myself over it to this day, that I didn't realize it sooner. We were basically LARPing decadence and somewhere along the way it crossed a line, which one of us didn't notice, and the other didn't speak up until it was too late. We've eventually talked about it years later, and we agreed that it was a young and stupid thing to do. We're on an ok terms now, but it's definitely something I don't want to ever do to anyone again - and I never did.
Abuse, manipulation (both attempted and successful) and threats all from more than one relationship over the years. Afterwards one of them said we could have something they thought we wanted with them but this just goes to show we were not understood at all by them.
Luckily we have much better relationships with people that actually care about us now.
The pain and trauma is still there though, especially since some happened very recently.
- Afterwards one of them said we could have something they thought we wanted with them but this just goes to shown we were not understood at all by them.
  I understand that very much. “I’ll let you do x” is not the same thing as “let’s do xyzabcdefg together as equally invested beings”
  I’m glad that you and they are in better places; the stones that pile up on your side make you the mountain you are. :)
  
  Yeah, this is we like our current relationships with people, they want us to be equals.
  Oh very much so, though we are more of a forest 😉
Well. Person I was in a relationship died. Don't know if it was a suidice or a murder but he's dead.
Still blame myself for that happened that evening
Manipulated me into loose(ning) friendships and discontinue interests, ignoring my needs (this especially includes health-related things).

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