Whelp, I've got cancer. It's the second time I've had it. About 9 months ago I was told the docs would treat me but I probably wouldn't make it.
Its been a hell of a time.
It's a blood cancer so at the moment I look normal from the outside. I've changed a lot though, in the sense that I've become more me.
I don't give a shit about anything except for spending time with people I like. I especially don't care about money or work.
It (death) is taking a lot longer to happen than I thought it would.
The real trip has been seeing other people's reactions; I accepted it early on but other people have had very different reactions. Mostly I think they just don't know how to react, or they don't think it will actually happen, or both.
I don't think the human mind is capable of understanding the concepts of "eternity" or "oblivion" very well.
I do believe in God but it's still scary.
Its the everyday things that catch you off guard; the other day I was wondering when the next soccer world cup would be, then I realised I probably wouldn't be around for it.
I think when I finally die it will be a relief from all the physical pain.
Assuming she escaped and wasn't murdered or imprisoned by the USSR, my bet would be that she would have fled to South America, had the baby then commited suicide (unable to live with past sins).
The kid would get tracked down decades later by a journalist, agree to a written interview as long as his identity remained a secret, and says that he's made a vow never to have kids, much like Hitler's actually living remaining relatives.
Wow I'm not from the US but it really seems like either there are some agent provocateurs out there or you guys just want to dither like idiots while Trump fucks up your country even more
Lol best answer so far