[serious] What survival reflexes of your own experience are hard for you to get rid of?
wanderwisley @ wanderwisley @lemm.ee Posts 0Comments 776Joined 5 mo. ago
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I don’t like being around drunk people, and I rarely drink myself. My father was a very abusive and violent drinker throughout my entire life. He is still alive now at 70 years old and has drank himself to-the point of feebleminded. He is still very ignorant and yells at anybody for absolutely no reason when I am not around him I feel the need to face him for all of these years of abuse, but if I am ever in his presence, I always feel like I am a small child curled up the corner. I do and have enjoyed drinking, but only one drink here or there once every couple of months and even then I can’t fully enjoy it because it puts me in his mindset and I just can’t enjoy myself.