But it's fascinating. I'd love to get a karyogram done, to see if my chromosomes actually match what people would expect from the person I lived as up to this point.
Would you expect something non-standard, or rather - would you be disappointed if it were one way or the other?
Thank you, I am very happily sober. It was actually never my plan, I always wanted to achieve controlled drinking. I wanted to be that parent who can have a glass of wine on a date night. But I would be scared shitless that it would go out of control so I don't feel like touching alcohol at all. And truth be told, I am too exhausted to deal with hangovers or that constant tiredness of being drunk right now.
Simply put, I am happy. I think I was drinking because the things I wanted out of life were so freaking far away. Now I got them all and there is no need to sabotage myself. Another part is that I was really excelling at a life that I hated, the Plan B life. And it was boring me to death, so I played it on difficult mode. Will they catch me? How far can I go? Like a stupid teenager.
What helped me, besides having something to work for, was that I didn't want to become sober forever. I know this should be the goal but as a 20 something who really liked the taste this was a scary thought. I kept thinking of reduction and even now, being fully aware that I most likely won't ever drink again, I set myself a goal to not drink until my kid is 12. That's an easier goal to have ahead of me than never again. For anyone out there struggling with the classic approaches, maybe that's something.
Oh God I don't remember. The thing is that I didn't have "The Drink". I drank basically everything (I know most people say that they drank mostly wine or mostly whiskey etc). And I didn't really keep count. I'd say on average days I had a beer or two before going to work, one at lunch, about 100 ml of hard liquor during the day and one or two beers before going home. At home I'd just keep drinking, wine and whiskey and beer and champagne and vodka and gin... Average bad days I'd guess about a liter of hard booze within 1.5 days and accompanied by one or two bottles of wine and a some 2-3 liters of beer.
For reference, I am a woman weighing about 50 kg. Most of the time I was extraordinarily high functioning. Like, best grade in an elite university in an exam despite being blasted.
The funny thing is, I knew all that. And I kept getting the same results from my excessive google searches. So why did I keep googling? I still wonder what the point was. But probably there just wasn't a point. I had all the symptoms and I knew that and I still wanted to keep my show up, which, insanely, worked. I did go on medical leave at some point but everyone thinks it was because of burnout and depression. Even the doctors. They saw my blood work and still somehow attributed insane ferritin levels to a flu I claimed I had. No need to say that keeping my appearance could have cost me my life and I absolutely do not recommend detoxing on your own.
And it did get better, thanks. Took a while and some fallbacks (this was probably the worst and most excessive and destructive binge since pre 2016). Haven't had a drink in over 3 years and at that point it was already just a glass of wine due to holidays.
I had an alcohol problem and once went to work somewhere between hungover, still drunk, and trying to sober up, being close to delirium. Anxiety through the roof. I kept googling things like "can you die from alcohol withdrawal" "how does dying from alcohol withdrawal feel" "symptoms of severe alcohol withdrawal" "how likely is it to die from alcohol withdrawal and delirium" - something along those lines. So, so often, with breaks in between trying to work, but I must have googled something like "dying" + "alcohol" like 60-100 times at least within a couple of hours. At some point my computer/browser asked if I was alright because my behaviour was suspicious. Needless to say this shot my anxiety up even more and I panicked so hard because I didn't know whether this was somehow reported to the university whose internet and laptop I was using or whether this was just google.
This was in 2019 and I still get anxiety attacks thinking about this message popping up
Hah you're worried about mass poverty leading to fascism? They are going to be dealing with... Checks five page long list with horrors awaiting future generations unavoidable microplastics poisoning them from the moment they are conceived
I once heard that the mirror thing is why we tend to dislike photos of ourselves - it's because we are not mirrored there and this unconsciously looks odd to us.
Fittingly to this theory, I know a lot of people who think they only look good in selfies and no one else can make a good picture of them. Maybe that's connected.
I agree 100%, if I may add: Society has also little place for "stupid" people. I mean people with a smaller IQ but who are not special needs. I have a friends who really, with all the best of support, is just not smart. Who has barely managed to finish school and couldn't understand stuff in their vocational training (I live in Germany, that's the typical route to go). She is working in a cafeteria now, serving food. She has this job for years and years now, she's well adapted there. It's not a special needs job, it is just the kind of job you get if you don't have a (vocational) degree to show for.
And there is no actual problem with that. She has friends and a husband and a fulfilling life. She's happy. She does her job well. You can argue that school has failed her but the truth is no matter what you do, she'd never become a lawyer or an accountant. That's just not in the cards for her. And that's ok. But what's not is that she is struggling with money. Because this is where society fails her. Assuming that you can always do better, have a "higher" job, if you just try hard enough. Like, no. We all have limitations. I couldn't be a doctor because I faint when someone tells me about injuries. That's ok, too. She won't have a career or manage the canteen, she's content, she doesn't want that either, but she will probably have to work until she dies because her retirement won't be enough. This isn't fair.
I've seen this with tutoring school children too. Some kids just won't make it to university and some won't even finish school. Or they will but that's just it then. And the sad part is not that they won't have an amazing education but that despite holding down a job they will just never be able to make it to a point in which they will not struggle financially.
Genuine question because I have no idea who that is, did she do this on purpose so that people would be fished into watching the video and therefore listening to what she is saying there?
Oh come on. It was never about the hostages. If anything, Netanyahu must have had a cramp trying to hold back a huge smile when he heard about the hostages. It is the perfect alibi to wage this war. He doesn't want the hostages released, they are his best reason for the war. At least for starting it. It is obvious there is no intention to stop even if they will be released now. If I remember correctly, they suggested a two month ceasefire for all hostages. Not the end of the war. Just a short break, and God knows how likely it is to be broken.
As for city streets, wouldn't concrete also be more dangerous for pedestrians? I can imagine that a fall on concrete is more likely to result in injury than on asphalt, with broken bones and skulls etc.
Somehow from the headline I imagined something different. I somehow imagined a little Putin. Basically someone playing the game so hardcore on purpose that it is obvious that he is faking all of his public opinions. But by pretending to be anti-LGBT, pro war, etc, he would avoid all the possible made up claims of foreign agent, being anti-Russia, etc. So they would have to find some other reason to disqualify him. Imagine they'd not be able to find one and not kill him off and he would actually have to run in a DeSantis vs Trump like manner. And if he won he'd just break all his election promises. Stop the war, paint everything in rainbows, change the constitution back.
I mean I know that's bs but that's where my mind went and I want to keep it there for just 5 more minutes.
Oh tell that to the annoying guy on every thread about Gaza claiming it is not a genocide because you cannot compare it to the Armenians or Rwanda and daring everyone to compare them to figure out the war in Gaza is not a genocide... Jfc
Der Kaffee ist ganz gut, aber leider sind die verschiedenen Sorten der Rösterei eher ähnlich vom Geschmack. Und dein Deutsch ist gut verständlich! Ein weiteres Jahr würde aber auch nicht schaden ;)
Would you expect something non-standard, or rather - would you be disappointed if it were one way or the other?