There was this candy back home called Choco bytes, which was essentially one of the pipe wafer things that a filled with chocolate but cut into small pieces, they tasted amazing but I think they were sold at a loss and so Cadbury pulled them. Loved those things and can't get a close enough equivalent any more.
I used to be like that, first or last there's no second place. And then I realized I don't even care, this was instilled in me from childhood that I was stupid or worthless if I couldn't memorize things I would always fail.
32 years later I still can't remember shit but I'm one of the more crucial devs on my team that's basically their lead and logically irreplaceable but I know I am.
All my friends are better at everything than I am, this is the only thing I have and now I see I'm starting to loose my intelligence as younger devs come in and I feel inadequate.
But now I don't care enough anymore fire me bitch I'll go be a farmer or some shit, anything is better than enterprise development.
I am also an idiot please don't take me seriously, I've had like 5 shots of whiskey.
Thanks cat, needed that.