Things have been somewhat more stable. My anxiety and depression seem to be somewhat under control although there are still the really bad days here and there. I’m slowly getting over severing ties with my best friend of 18 years and am slowly coming to the realisation that maybe it was all for the best. Otherwise, all is the same, gym, work, therapy, some light gaming and reading. Things will be okay.
I did the same. My story had a really dark twist though…. Luckily things are somewhat better these days, but it’ll be one of those things that I’ll remember in my deathbed…
I understand healing is not a linear process, but some days just feel so hard. I’ve been exercising very regularly(dropped 15kg), going to therapy, engaging with other people, but any amount of effort still feels Herculean. It was pointed out to me that low testosterone levels could cause some of these symptoms so I guess I’ll get that checked next. But yeah, my week has been difficult…too many losses in a very short time span…
Kagi is the only one that consistently gives me much better results than google. The fact that it's not riddled with ads on the first page was a big incentive for me to give them some cash. It actually improved my productivity at work a whole lot. This actually made me think how shitty google has become when I was preferring results given by an error prone AI compared to just searching for it. Now with Kagi, I can actually find the stuff I'm looking for and only use AI in case I can't find it there for some reason. Totally worth the monthly subscription for me.
There's a Korean reality TV/game show that I really enjoy, called "The Genius". Sadly, it's no longer airing, but I think it's one of my favorite shows that has ever aired. I used to be into Chinese dramas back when I was living there, but nowadays my Chinese is very rusty, and I don't get the same satisfaction from watching them.
Something about pushing my body to its limits just makes me feel very good. I can't really explain it. I don't like the pain or the effort, but doing one more bench press always makes me feel so good about myself. I suppose it's the sense of accomplishment. The first few months were very hard since I was 30kg overweight and hadn't done any kind of sports in a long time, so just the thought of exercising made me anxious. Nowadays, I'm much more accustomed to it. I've lost a bit over 10kg, and the challenge has become somewhat addictive.
I had a co-worker who was super into sim racing. He had this insane setup in his living room with a chair, pedals and so on. What wheels and pedals do you recommend to get started? 🤔
I started taking notes on a app called Craft. It kind of takes a page from notion, but it is not nearly as bloated. I use it for everything, notes on books, journaling, keep tabs on my exercises and so on.
One of the things I hate the most is when people say, "You gotta be X hours in and then it is really great!" If you have to wait for a game to get good then, in my opinion, it is not a very good game. I want to have fun right from the beginning.
Thanks. I have a therapist who's been helping me to make sense of it all. Otherwise, I've just been trying to keep myself busy, going to the gym, trying new hobbies and so on. Hopefully, things will get easier as time goes on.
This year has been without a doubt one of the most difficult years for me. My relationship is not going great, we may be headed towards a divorce. I’m also no longer talking to my best friend of 18 years. She was someone who had been in my life since I was a kid and I feel so lonely without her.
I’m trying to get my routines in check but just going through the day without having a breakdown seems like a Herculean effort.
Things have been somewhat more stable. My anxiety and depression seem to be somewhat under control although there are still the really bad days here and there. I’m slowly getting over severing ties with my best friend of 18 years and am slowly coming to the realisation that maybe it was all for the best. Otherwise, all is the same, gym, work, therapy, some light gaming and reading. Things will be okay.