I get why you would feel like a bad person. You stole and that's easily considered wrong. Feeling bad about that is natural.
I think you are allowed room for mistakes. And if something is a habit it is good to be kind to yourself. Cleaning up a long held bad habit can take longer than we expect.
My advice is that sometimes we realize we want to live differently, and that's awesome. You obviously want to give back and be kind to people. You are also very young and impulse control is a bitch. It doesn't finish developing till late 20s.
You'll make more mistakes in the future. You'll realize you've hurt people and that's okay, that's life. Just keep adjusting and don't be too hard on yourself.
We can organize easier and for things we wouldn't have even known were happening in the past. The Internet and our understand of how to interact with it is not very mature. That takes generational knowledge imo. Things are more chaotic and unprecedented than ever, and we at least have the opportunity to be more informed than at any other time in history. I think we can learn from the past and even if we fail we'll hopefully have helped future generations by giving them a good case study.
We aren't there, but imagine a world where ideas aren't owned. Where you aren't hurt by someone else using your work. Where we all benefit from innovation and reuse.
If ya do it right, you can't distinguish the signal from the noise. Encryption makes data look random. So if you send dummy random data then it just looks like constant random data. No signal is distinguishable.
I agree that misinformation gets platformed. And that the information landscape we navigate naturally supports those who own it and have the most powerful megaphones.
I also don't believe that there is a perfect ideology. We would all have to be identical to make a perfect world. Though I do think that by making thoughtful connections we can process the world differently. And that how we see the world is how we navigate it.
Therefore, to be a healthy memeber of society you cannot protect your beliefs from criticism. To navigate a collective world you have to try and see others' maps. Otherwise you'll be baffled by the decisions of others, and you won't be able to communicate about important topics.
So direct, calm and curious conversations with those who disagree are vital to living in harmony. At least in my opinion. I don't think we can guess good enough, I'd rather ask directly.
How do you fight fascism without understanding why it's supporters do what they do?
Not OP, but personally I think diverse discussion is some of the more important work a person can participate in.
There is too much potential energy in our networks when we don't understand each other, and I support a calm controlled release of that energy. I am scared of how people will leverage that energy at the expense of many.
So I want to exist in a place of diverse thoughts so I can help the world calmy understand itself.
That was interesting to read up on. Homie has some absolutely wild ideas. I saw a diagram that mentioned Socrates, the Clinton's, Einstein, and Jesus. Doesn't read like he was trying to control folks but I got no clue how he got there lmao.
Are you trying to say that people being fired from Nvidia is more important than egg prices? Maybe let me check how many employees they have. Seems to be about 30k. Idk man comparing human experiences at this scale gets pretty sticky. Maybe it's just confirmation bias, but egg prices and by extension grocery prices are probably more important to the average person. Infact they even affect Nvidia employees that are fired.
I think ya went a little wide there homie. I'm sorry if you have had bad experiences but like I feel a little offended. Chan Zen is pretty anti indoctrination. Many Zen masters refused students and needed to be begged to teach.
You've met different online right wingers than me lol. Maybe you are just on left platforms. I think both sides have the full range. We just see nicer right wingers on a left platforms like lemmy. That's the only way they'd survive lol.
Do you see right wingers on X responding politely on average? Leftists on X are also very intense.
I think it is more acceptable to be a raging leftist on lemmy. I think X promotes intensity. I think most people that would sit and chat in person would be capable of a calm and productive conversation.
I get why you would feel like a bad person. You stole and that's easily considered wrong. Feeling bad about that is natural.
I think you are allowed room for mistakes. And if something is a habit it is good to be kind to yourself. Cleaning up a long held bad habit can take longer than we expect.
My advice is that sometimes we realize we want to live differently, and that's awesome. You obviously want to give back and be kind to people. You are also very young and impulse control is a bitch. It doesn't finish developing till late 20s.
You'll make more mistakes in the future. You'll realize you've hurt people and that's okay, that's life. Just keep adjusting and don't be too hard on yourself.