i saw a post once talking about how people think they had more energy when they were younger, but it's actually because they now using more time and energy to take care of themselves. i'd like to believe that's true
i feel that. and usually i end up obsessed over finding anything that could distract me but everything feels like trash for a while so it's a whole downward spiral
i also feel a lot of peer pressure to be perfect, but this time i was feeling down because i had just restarted after taking a long break and was doing a lot worse than i used to. it's not as if i can go back to being as good as i was without practicing though, so i just have to keep doing it and laugh a bit to feel better
sometimes it's something that can't be looked up like a song tune or a scene from a show. i tried searching once using humming and it didn't work, but thankfully it only took a couple days for me to remember where it was from
more accurate than webmd