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That’s the fun part!

But it is a complex process. Often times getting the appt scheduled will be the blocker for me, but it’s always the cascade behind it that is the real issue. I can schedule appointments all day long, but when I know it’s committing me to an office visit, follow-ups, insurance or out of pocket payment, shuffling my day around to make it fit, and all other manner of ‘things’ that are suddenly on my plate that weren’t before it turns into a whole thing. I’m usually at my best when I can just be in the present and get what needs to be done right now done without worrying about that cascade.

But then, say I manage that and the appointment is coming up and I am back in that headspace considering all the cascading effects of going to that appointment…. I have to brute force every single step or all the work I’ve done til now gets wasted. If I’m lucky enough I can sunken cost my way into productivity. Otherwise it’s a constant practice in gaslighting myself to stop thinking about the forest for the trees (which still sucks because at least the forest is just one big thing while the trees are millions of little things which might be worse) just to stay functional.

I’m very close to finally getting prescribed a stimulant that my psych thinks will help with all of this and I’m very keen to see if it helps.

It’s really brilliant. Like, really really brilliant. I think you’ll appreciate as someone who’s studying ethics.

Ooohhhh you’re turning into Chidi.

Looking forward to getting mine at Claire’s!

I just spent some time on Claude 3, and I see how it can be considered ‘better’ than GPT4, however I quickly found that it tends to lie about itself in subtle ways. When I called it out on an error it would say things like ‘I’ll strive to be better’. I called it out on the fact that it’s model doesn’t grow or change based on conversations it has and that it’s impossible for it to strive to do anything outside of, maybe, that chat. It then went on to show me that it couldn’t even adjust within that chat by doing the same thing 5 more times in 5 different ways.

I see the model it used for the apologies (acknowledge, apologize, state intent to do better in the future) which is appropriate for people or beings capable of learning, but it is not. I went from having a good conversation with it about a poem I wrote to being weirdly grossed out by it. GPT does a good job of not pretending to be human, and I appreciate that.

Good to know. Thank you for sharing.

I haven’t been into a therapists office in 7 years now, and I’ve been in active therapy for all 7 of the intervening years.

Don’t discount how paralyzing executive dysfunction can be when all you have to do is ‘go to a place’.

This is going to sound really stupid, and I should note that I am actively in therapy too.

But I had to put my dog down about a month ago, and there was a point where I just needed some validation, so I went to GPT4 and asked it some questions and told it about how I was feeling. I even fed it a poem that I wrote about her and asked if it was good.

The responses were incredibly empathetic and kind, and did an amazing job at speaking directly to the anxiety, pain, and fear I was feeling in those moments. The responses were what I needed to hear and gave me a measure of peace to get me through in those gaps when people weren’t available, or when I wasn’t able to speak them out loud. There was nothing new to me in those responses, but often times we just need to be reminded by someone or something outside of ourselves about what the truth is, and LLMs can absolutely fill that particular hole when trained properly.

My last three months in particular have been tough, and GPT4 has been a useful tool to get through a fair few storms for me.

Candied walnuts, dried cranberries, and carrot slivers are sooo good in a salad. Especially with a sweet balsamic dressing. It’s pure summer on a plate.

Their chocolate milk taught me how to burp on command. I remember sitting at the table and taking a big drink which suddenly gave me insight to how it would work, so I did and tossed the biggest belch I’d ever made out there on the table. My eyes went wide and I looked up at my parents and just yelled ‘I figured it out!’ Their faces of disgust slowly changed to faces of confusion while I was just laughing and cheering and belching.

I used to do this too, but then realized it was a big factor in my over eating. If there’s too much food on the plate then I don’t get to enjoy all of my favorite element unless I stuff myself.

It’s why I don’t like wings, or most bone-in chicken.

That sounds tough to deal with.

Ooh, I’m more typewriter with mine. Left to right in horizontal lines.

Question, do you rotate up or down? I always hate the first row because there isn’t a kernel to bite through cleanly with my eye teeth so I always rotate up.

Depends on how much I like the food 😅

It’s not that rural people are bad, to me, it’s that they’re under resourced and groomed. They’re often victims of their ignorance, which is why so many people that ‘get out’ cite the exposure to other ideas as to why they evolve.

Yes they are dragging us down and backward, I don’t think there’s any doubt about that. But the ones to be angry at are the people in power.

Im willing to bet they’re gonna try it anyway.

Where’s it streaming?

Yep, when it still had some value. It was a great location with a view over Lake Washington near South Lake Union in Seattle too. That was during the run of a few years that the SLT was maki g good choices which ended this last year and resulted in some layoffs including myself. It was nice while it lasted lol.