jbrains @ jbrains @sh.itjust.works

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I relate to these patterns, which is why I have tried to learn about the fundamentals of motivation.

What is the relationship for you between my prior suggestion and your clarification above?

One of these is likely to be true for you. Maybe more than one.

• You don't know what to do, at least some part of it.
• You know what to do, but you don't know what will happen if you do it.
• You know what to do and you know what will happen, but you don't want that to happen.

If any of these resonate with you, then that might give a clue about what to try next.

In addition, you can act without feeling motivated. Some people like starting with 10 minutes of effort or a single step, because sometimes doing anything is enough to sustain energy and focus. It's a way of using inertia to work for you, rather than against you.

Countries typically don't allow that. (Do any allow it?) For example, Canada requires you (at least) to be a citizen of another country and to live outside Canada.

It varies from country to country. Some countries don't let you become a citizen again after renouncing, while others allow it.

Citizenship is related to taxes (which also varies from country to country), so some countries are very interested in your citizenship in order to be able to establish that you owe them income taxes.

How would your previous country find out? I imagine it's like any crime: you either do something to make it easier for them (try to renew a passport, fail to file a tax return) or they find you by accident (some investigator notices a connexion between two observations that makes their mind tingle).

There's probably more, but that's enough to answer your questions.

This is the reason I liked kakoune right away after I started using it: select, then act, and every movement is also a selection.

It sounds perfectly normal to me.

Hell is other people. You only exist because other people see you, which means that other people have a chance to judge you. You can never escape the risk of their judgment. Never.

Most people go through three stages:

1. Discovering this.
2. Fighting this.
3. Accepting this.

This is not a problem to solve, but instead a reality to accept. Think about this for a while. One day, you might realize that:

1. They, not you, are responsible for how they judge you.
2. You can't stop them from judging you, only they can. And even they probably can't.
3. Most people most of the time are too busy thinking about themselves to pay much attention to you.

It'll happen when you're ready.

I spent decades worried about what people thought of me, because I'd been bullied in my youth and had to be aware of people's motives for self-protection. I kept this habit even after the threats had gone away. That's the power of habits established in childhood.

You could try, when you have this impulse, looking at the impulse as nothing more than an impulse that will fade away, if you look right at it.

Peace.

I see. Thanks for answering. I can absolutely understand feeling confused when you don't understand your own reaction/behavior.

Often, this kind of intuitive reaction comes from some conditioning from your childhood. Somebody taught you "the right way to be" or "the right way to think" and even though you don't need that any more, you've lived with it for such a long time that you're following it without realizing that that's what's happening.

Maybe that's already enough for you to identify the cause: can you hear a voice from your past when you start crying? Can you already identify a person who might have taught you why you should be or must not be attracted to this kind of guy? Either you're feeling something you were taught not to or not feelings something that they expect you to.

If you can't put your finger on it, then you might need to spend some time just letting your mind wander about it. Who taught me to want this kind of guy? Who taught me never to want this kind of guy? It might take time, but an idea or a memory might suddenly come to you, just by contemplating these questions.

If that doesn't work, then you might need to talk the question through with someone, such as a trusted friend or even a therapist. Sometimes having another person around when you think about this makes me say things out loud that I find easy to push away when I'm alone.

And, of course, all this advice is based on the idea that you're confused by how you're reacting, and that understanding your reaction is important to you. Otherwise, it might be a giant waste of energy. That's why I asked.

Peace.

Why do you wish that this didn't have such an effect on you? I wonder less about your reaction and more about the story you're telling yourself about that reaction, such as "it's not OK for me to react this way".

Would Ward you say Poe is cunning, and likes ham?

Fixed!

Winston? Does that mean the clock is striking thirteen?

What is the relationship between "they are competing with me" and "I feel like I don't deserve any of the success that I've worked very hard on"?

Let them. How does this hurt you? What is your actual challenge here?

Value is a personal and arbitrary decision. You are free to value anything you want as much as you want. Everyone has this freedom.

This means that everything can "be worth doing" to anyone who chooses to value it highly enough compared to the cost of doing it.

Peace.

What are you actually asking?

Moreover, if you see other people around you doing less, then you're under no obligation to do more than they do. Even if you prefer doing your job well, on those days where you're not up for it, don't feel bad about doing less. As long as that doesn't affect how your immediate manager/supervisor/boss evaluates you, do what you need to.

And let them do what they do. And if they get away with it, that's not up to you to remedy. Employment can be as simple as an agreement to do the minimun needed for them to keep paying you as little as they can get away with. And we're not likely to fix that problem today. 😉

Best wishes and peace.

I'd like to know where you are expecting to read "please" on Lemmy or Mastodon where it seems not to be commonly used.

I haven't used it on a project for money, but I have some tests in shunit2 and that alone encourages me to extract code to functions.

Enjoy! "I've chosen to find it charming."