the worst part for me is I work in a sports adjacent industry so im constantly searching for details about sports teams, so my feed would just clog up with 100 random college sports, and pro sports.
I watch Youtube, but I do not post or comment.
I am on Linkedin but I do not post, and infrequently comment.
I am active on Discord, and will remain until they too get greedy and I have to abandon the product.
changed it to a link at the bottom of the post because people were confused, I linked to the last time brother was caught doing it by "press" but all the most recent examples are on Reddit, and I wont drive clicks to Reddit.
No really, I dont know if you are medicated or not, but I lean on my Zoloft to keep me from the abyss. I spend every day in a state of a million micro shames, and expectation of disappointing the people around me.
Step over a pile of laundry, shame. Tell some one I will finish something and I dont, that look on their face of "here comes the excuse."
I have to make a choice, and that is that I refuse to let these moments of shame and feelings of personal failure to compound or be additive. I cannot control my past actions, I can only try to provide a structure for improved success in the future. I also choose to not postpone joy. I try to take moments and find moments where I can experience even the smallest bit of joy. That first sip of coffee, the sound of crickets and cicadas as the sun goes down, a cool breeze.
I am also working to redefine me in respect to who I am and move that away from my job. I used to just be my job, now my job is something I do for part of my day but its not me. I enjoy building things and tinkering, I enjoy playing with legos as an adult.
So TLDR, dont postpone joy, accept the shame of your failures but dont bring it with you into the next moment. Happiness is 80% a choice and its easier to make with medical assistance.
I generally put the Serial in first, as its very reliable.