Yeah that's a really hard one. Not sure I have handled it well when faced with it myself. But listening is the best. It's a natural feeling and being open to hearing it means that you can better judge how to help based on whether it's a passing feeling, depression kicking in, or a genuine desire.
And then come here or to some other safe space and scream and kick and let out your own fears. You are doing good.
I have no solutions except to confirm that chronic pain is a soul crusher. That you are persisting and still caring for yourself and melbcat is a feat. Hope you get a bit of respite soon.
Sleep study done. Pretty shit at the start with the wires. Got woken at 2pm because apparently was having breathing trouble so they tried CPAP. I reckon I got deep sleep for the first time in a LOOONG time after that. 😳 Now have to wait for full results.
I did keep laying there thinking "no-one knew who I was until I put on the mask"....
Oh my bedroom was dusty 🫣 but now de-feraled, clothes away. Floors done. Dusted. Bathroom spruced. Gonna have a shower and give that a wipe down while I am in there. Not perfect but feel like I am back on an even keel cleaning wise.
We are hear to listen any time. Gentle hugs.