You deserve both gifts and kindness. I snooped through your profile, are you still in the running for or did you get the job? I also have agoraphobia so I'm super proud of you for going to at least the two rounds :)
The amount of work put into recreating these events in 3d as well, is just amazing. I didn't actually know what happened to the shooter so it "fun" to watch events unfold.
Hi there, I've been in that "wouldn't mind if something happened" phase for five years or so, with spurts of active ideation. I have chronic tonic clonic (lmfao) seizures (epilepsy), have chronic depression, I've developed agoraphobia and have been self-isolating similar to you. I've also lost 35lbs the past couple years from an already less-than-healthy weight. Every therapy session is about food and it's exhausting. Every week it's "what got in your way of eating?", "what am I missing?", "How can we make it easier to eat next week?"... (it's good therapy, just frustrating).
I'm a good friend but whenever my friends ask about me I feel like I never have anything but doom and gloom when they're off living l vibrant lives (not without their own struggles of course). So it's hard to feel like it's worth being my friend and like I'm doing them a favor pulling away.
Probably nothing helpful in there, just turned into my own venting... Lol. But if you don't currently see a psychologist or therapist please do look into it.
Just want to point out that it was perhaps your lowest low this week, and you STILL made progress. That's a hell of a showing of strength and resiliency!
Moved to Kalamazoo in 2015 for school and haven't left, really love it here and it sounds like a good fit for OP maybe. From my experience, pretty good remote/wfh options.
Actually, no. In this case, everyone is only loved by one person–whoever brought them in. All love the flows down from the top to the newest members.
The actually design flaw is that you aren't loved by the people you love, and you don't love the people who love you 💀
Then of course the person at the top (sorry OP) is loved by nobody, and then last members have nobody to love. But if the final members love OP, that would create a nice positive feedback loop, as it were.
It's okay. I hit a new weight high of 129 lbs (I am 5'11" so hitting as low as 119 is fucked) but now the idea of eating even more is extra nauseating and unappealing. About to see my therapist though and they'll be thrilled with the gains. Anyone else fucking despise food and eating and biological needs??
You deserve both gifts and kindness. I snooped through your profile, are you still in the running for or did you get the job? I also have agoraphobia so I'm super proud of you for going to at least the two rounds :)