fracture [he/him] @ fracture @beehaw.org

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this is a really good message, i appreciate reading it. i hope we can all take away "a body is inherently valuable for allowing us to live, and is worthy of kindness"

idk this story really wants to paint the duplex lady as sympathetic, but she's living the high life to have an entire separate house attached to hers to do what she pleases with. i don't really feel bad that she can't make money off airbnb with it, she can still exploit people make money off it by having long term tenants. you know, like she wasn't just arbitrarily taking an entire housing situation off the market. sure, she's not as much of a problem as big corpos making bank on airbnb, but i fully feel like she's more in that category than not

i'm open to hearing other opinions on this, though. i've never lived in a duplex. maybe they're really intimate with consideration to the other people living there? but from my view, this seems just like someone who owns two apartments and is now upset they can't get their airbnb slice of the pie for the other one

so, my opinion on your game idea is essentially: it sounds like a decent idea. but ideas are only as good as their implementation. so a lot depends on how well you execute it. but the idea itself, sure. it's fine. the world building twist is neat

i mostly wanted to let you know that games to learn programming are actually a small market in games. it already exists and people are already making games like that. there's even games for teaching things like assembly, which is more esoteric than C/C++ (among others, you can check out Human Resource Machine)

so i think it would do you some good to research what's out there, see how they do things, see if you find them lacking in some way, etc. then you can bring what you learned back to your game

game developers need to unionize yesterday

i actually had the same reservations, but as i thought about it more, i think stray actually makes more sense as a movie. that way you can give the cat more personality and drive, rather than trying to capitalize on people's desires to be a cat and do cat things. the game really shoehorns in the narrative, especially past the first half. it would have worked better with a more personified creature imo, since the game really ends up being driven by the narrative rather than the whimsy of the player (which is what i would have expected from a game whose focus was on doing cat things)

this is an interesting study to see. it's a survey of mortality among japanese men and women and how their diets correlate with causes of death

personally, i'm not sure i find this a compelling argument against keto for men. their finding is increased mortality if their carbohydrate intake is <40% of their total energy expenditure. 40% is a pretty high bar for keto, where you're looking to be at 5% at most (at most, 20g of carbs a day = 80 calories; 2000/80 comes out to be about 4%)

so probably, a lot of these people aren't in keto, which i would consider a clinically relevant distinction (we don't know for sure, since the nuances of the population's eating habits weren't published)

second, i don't know that i would want to try keto in japan? like, i don't know what their fat sources are, but... if i ate enough fish to sustain myself on keto, i'd get fucked up by mercury. and like... idk how much better it is? but a lot of my food comes from beef and dairy, which i don't think are as commonplace there (i know it's bad for the environment. i know. i know. i don't want to starve though. i'm sorry)

i'm not that educated on how food looks in japan. but it strikes me as very keto unfriendly. depending, this might be a huge factor, or a minor one, but it's hard to say without clarification

anyways, it's an interesting post from a transmasc point of view. i originally fled carbs while running on estrogen. i feel like i tolerate them better (not well, per se) on testosterone. there's a definite challenge on keto to eat enough calories on testosterone, especially now that i work out and i'm trying to build a considerable amount of muscle

but at the end of the day, i still feel better on keto, and now that i've figured out how to reliably provide like 3k calories in fat, i'm doing pretty well

nice, i'll give seitan a try sometime

It’s sad to have issues with soy :-/ I really love tofu.

thank you, i appreciate this. i'm a quarter japanese ffs, and for what?? >_<

ohh thank you, i appreciate it!

thanks for posting this, fuck the nyt

for those in america, CWA, Communication Workers of America, is a union that's trying to reach out to the developers in the game industry

not really qualified to comment on protein needs; although, as a growing boy putting on muscle, needing more wouldn't really surprise me

but, from what i do know about nutrition, i'm bothered that no one seemed to consider the ratio of protein to carbs/fats. i think you'll need more protein if your energy needs aren't being met by carbs or fats. protein isn't really a preferential energy source for us, and i could easily imagine people having issues with protein absorption if they're not receiving adequate energy from the other macros

also, on a personal note, it sucks how difficult it is to get clean, environmentally friendly protein and fat that doesn't have milk or soy in it. as someone who does keto, there's basically no brand out there who does meat substitutes right except for Beyond, which is free of allergens (although i'm sure there are a few people who are allergic to pea protein out there) and doesn't add a bunch of carbs

i need to put more research into substituting whey protein, since it seems like no amount of ingested lactase entirely prevents digestive issues with it. but i'm confident it can be done, with the bonus of being more environmentally friendly. i've gotten a recommendation to use rice and pea protein, so it's just a matter of going out of my way to get some

also, don't forget that CORPORATIONS ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR 70% OF GREENHOUSE GAS EMISSIONS. not to say individual choices don't help, but they're a minority contribution

this is cool as fuck, science rules

i actually dropped crochet because of the wrist issues (well, i got bored too, but still). do you happen to have a graphic of the different hand position you do for it? i dunno if i'll pick it back up, but i'm curious nonetheless

i'm also interested in this. particularly within gaming, lame has a specific connotation of referring to "anti-fun" strategies in a derogatory way that's hard to replace (things like camping, cheap strats, spamming, etc). but, for similar reasons as to what you've outlined, i'd like to substitute it

but otoh i wonder if we're kind of settling on what language is acceptable for derogatory use and what isn't. the r word is not okay, but dumb/stupid is, even though they're technically the same origin. perhaps lame falls into the same category? i haven't seen anyone overly upset over it's use, anyways

i'm surprised you even got anything out of taking so many at a time, by nature they're a chemical that needs to build up and has a gradual effect on your body. that temporary feeling of relief could have even been placebo. regardless, i say this so you understand that fundamentally goes against how they're supposed to work. ideally, you would have just had your dose raised, because the one you had was clearly not strong enough for you. but that ship seems to have sailed, not much we can do now

anyways... you have a soft heart, and that's not a bad thing. but you need to be responsible with it. think of your heart like a creature that needs good nourishment; reading stories of sadness and despair are bad nourishment. you need good nourishment, stories that bring you hope and joy, to flourish. so get off of social media, regulate your intake. read happy stories on webtoons or fantasy books or something. even the most mentally resilient people aren't equipped for the flood of bad news that comes in from every corner of the world, so don't feel ashamed of it. it's taking care of yourself. you're not doing anyone any good by reading about sad things you can't change, you're just making it so the sad things are making the world even more sad

the other thing to understand is, that lack of control over your meds, that's actually a lack of ability to tolerate your own emotions. you read something, you feel sad, and you can't tolerate that feeling, so you overdose on your meds to try and cope. again, not something to be ashamed of, but it's important to recognize. it's also important to recognize that tolerating your feelings is a skill, and it's a skill you can build. it takes dedicated time and effort, but it can be done with the things i mentioned in my original post - breathing exercises and meditation

it sounds like you've lived a hard life, as well, and if you can find a therapist, i think that would be good for you, to help talk these things out and recognize that the feelings they evoke are not permanent and that you will survive the pain they bring. i'd recommend you find a trauma informed therapist, if you can.

so, for a list for you:

1. stop reading about all the bad shit that happens in the world, replace it with postiive / happy things
2. walk a little bit each day
3. research and practice mindfulness meditation
4. practice breathing exercises
5. find a therapist, schedule an appointment, and go see them consistently

take these up for the next six months. if you're a little more stable, you can reach out to your doctor and explain the steps you've taken to improve your life and see if they're willing to take you back. or you can just find a different doctor, but i think it would be good to practice these things at least a little bit first, so you don't need to worry about abusing your pills again

sorry if i'm a little terse here, i did my best, but i'm super tired and sore from doing yoga, something i'm doing for myself to help with similar problems. if you have any questions, please ask them and i'll reply to you again tomorrow after i've rested

i'm gonna reply to your other post later today but i'd like you to read this really good post i found elsewhere on beehaw about long covid

https://beehaw.org/comment/995252

just didn't want to lose the link

kinda sounds like you have long covid. i'd highly recommend working on improving your cardiovascular health in the short term. if you can run, run. if not, walk. just as much activity as you can do consistently

it's hard to underscore how important being able to breathe is. i know you're depressed and worried about things, and you don't feel like anything has a point... but it's a lot easier to feel those things when your cells can't get the energy they need to function

i'm a little too sleepy to write much about the nihilism you're feeling, but... i spend my life trying to help people and improve the lives of those around me as much as i can. it doesn't really matter to me if i'm remembered

but being able to help others starts with being able to help yourself. you can only give once you, yourself, are provided for. and you deserve that, so do your best to achieve it, even though the world makes that very hard

try to do some breathing techniques and meditation too. i like 4-7-8 breathing (inhale for 4 counts, hold for 7, exhale for 8) but you can try 4-4-4 (same thing but all are 4 counts) or just focusing on breathing where you're exhaling longer than you're inhaling

why did you stop your depression medication? if it wasn't working for you, you should bring it up to your doctor and try a different one. there are a lot of them and one will probably help you

for the meditation, read about mindfulness. it's about just trying to be present in the moment, instead of losing your train of thought and focusing on that

try to focus on these basic things for the next six months or so. covid can be devastating to the human body and recovery takes a long time. be easy on yourself and do your best to heal. you're young so you'll hopefully be able to bounce back with some patience and effort

i hope this helps, i think you sound like a bright young person with a good future ahead of you, if you can become healthy again. i believe you can, i hope you can too

sleep with wrist guards on. the kind with the metal plates in em, that keep your wrist tilted back a bit. both hands. uncomfortable at first but easily the best long term investment for your wrists you can make (this applies for your thumb too, it's all connected)

the fact your thumb is going numb is pretty worrisome. if you can, baby it in the shower hot water and massage it. or alternate running hot and cold water on it (4 min hot, 1 min cold). stretch it, your wrists, arms and shoulders (it's all connected). look up nerve glides and do those as well

i went to wrist pt for a while, this is all stuff i learned from it. hope it helps, seems like you're covered on feet/leg stuff

in a week, my friend. on the 24th

wow that's crazy, workers have standards for themselves and now the bosses can't push us around and force us back to the office? wonder what would happen if we had those standards for more things...