I was in the same boat and read a lot of different books and watched videos on how to draw, and the number one thing that helped me was the frequency with which I drew.
techniques made a difference certainly, but the amount that I drew was the primary factor in how satisfied I became with my art.
if I can share purely anecdotal evidence, something that seems to help me was not drawing the next line until I could see the next line in my head, and project that mental next line onto the paper that I was drawing.
I didn't read that or watch that anywhere, I just thought that if I could picture what I wanted to draw in my head, I could probably draw it, and until that point I wasnt clearly picturing what I wanted to draw in my head.
surviving doesn't mean you care any less; you're taking care of yourself and hopefully in the future you'll be in a better position to speak up for those rights like you obviously want to in the future.
yes, herbalists and healers would have access to and knowledge of fast-acting poisons.
there are plenty of plants like nightshade that can rapidly kill a human, and those familiar with plant life would be well aware of that.
hemlock isn't as fast acting, maybe a few hours before death if you ate it, but that's how Socrates was executed 2400 years ago, and according to sources it took about half an hour for him to die, so knowledge of fast-acting poisons is very old.
I was in the same boat and read a lot of different books and watched videos on how to draw, and the number one thing that helped me was the frequency with which I drew.
techniques made a difference certainly, but the amount that I drew was the primary factor in how satisfied I became with my art.
if I can share purely anecdotal evidence, something that seems to help me was not drawing the next line until I could see the next line in my head, and project that mental next line onto the paper that I was drawing.
I didn't read that or watch that anywhere, I just thought that if I could picture what I wanted to draw in my head, I could probably draw it, and until that point I wasnt clearly picturing what I wanted to draw in my head.