Of course, Syncthing is a fantastic tool, but it's important to note that it serves a different purpose compared to platforms like NC or OC. What I'm really in need of is a collaborative cloud system that allows me to easily work together with other people :)
I also need those services, but I find them more responsive with standalone solutions such as Vikunja, Radicale, Navidrome, IHateMoney and so on ;)
My issue is that I badly need a fast and reliable drive for work.
I remember trying it but it still felt sluggish. I tried uninstalling and reinstalling and it just kept failing and I didn't want to wipe anything just for Nextcloud.
I found the application support to be a great plus when I started using Nextcloud. Then, maybe only psychologically, it felt like bloat slowing down my setup soI started hosting standalone solutions instead.
I totally get your enthusiasm about memories. But while I'm a photographer and have my own way of sorting stuff, I find photoprism or immich more attractive and convenient solutions.
Please, call for help.
Here is a list of hotline support from all around the world.
You being on earth right now is some kind of wonderful magic event. Think of the odds of you being on this giant rock lost in vacuum thinking about your own condition and building a family.
Don't loose that magical spark, you're worth it :)
The way you got to that elaborated answer got me stunned.