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  • In December 2022 I realized I skipped seeing my cardiologist for 6 years. Did a 24 hour monitor. Apparently my heart rate was dropping to 21 bpm and stopping pumping for up to three seconds. So in February 2023 they cut me open and give me a pacemaker. Months go on and I am still getting winded. So they did another heart Cath procedure (on the 28th) and it turns out my heart is doing worse than thought even, so in the next 3-5 years I'll need a heart transplant. But the make up of my organ layout means I'll need a specialist, which just all sounds so slim. I am 33 and so fucking tired.

    I hope to leave some of this stress behind. I know there's a lot I can't escape now, but I hope I can leave some of the anger and fear behind. It's been hard to be a good dad or partner this year just from feeling so stressed, and if I don't know how long we will have I just want my daughter to remember a happier dad.

  • I'm very baked and I want some minor clarification before I attempt to do something stupid at some point. But you say put it all in the stand mixer and then you say boil it. Am I able to put my kitchen aid bowl on the stove? Again, not trying to be an ass. Genuinely baked in the bathtub

  • Please do it to Eliquis. My fucking insurance just jumped it up to 275 a month.

    Edit: also, I don't have anybody to vent this too. But the hospital just called and I have to have another heart surgery In 22 days. I had open heart surgery 9 months ago. I'm just so fucking tired

  • That sounds dope. I'm putting that on my Kindle right now

    Edit: actually I'm having trouble finding it, The book that's coming up doesn't sound like it. And the other one that is coming up is a romance about hockey. Do you happen to know the author?

    Edit #2: I think I found it, " the light of other days" by Arthur c. Clarke sounds like it might be the book you were talking about.

  • My ranger is 3200 pounds.

    Edit: Just checked cuz I was curious, and that is only 300 lb more than the Tesla model 3. Your comment felt rude and unnecessarily aggressive. I hope you're having a good night.

  • Man, I tried finding one of those cool websites where you can put like two cars together to compare their size. But it doesn't have the year of my ranger. But yeah, they're smaller than the new trucks by a lot. And they weigh about half as much. If you can get one of the older Toyota's or like a cool little Datsun, they're a little bit smaller, but really kind of in the mid 2000s was when trucks really started blowing up in size and absurdity.

  • I really like my 2003 Ford ranger. It's small, but can still haul enough that it works perfectly fine for when I'm picking up dirt for my garden. But also it's definitely not fuel efficient in the way that I'd want it to be. I wish they made something that size but newer.

  • My brother is literally part of Facebook groups just for arguing politics. It's like a drug addiction to him. It seems like such a weird use of energy and time. I like being on the fediverse because I feel like I have more genuine actual conversations. And not arguments.

  • The surgery that kept me alive at birth wasn't invented until the late '80s. So I guess I would just be fucked no matter what. So put me wherever they want, any time before 1950 is going to suck ass for me.

    Now assuming that part of my time travel comes with being able to fix my heart stuff. I would like to be born in the early 1900s. I can't think of a single time where I'm not going to fight both war and awfulness in the general world. But at least then I could be around for some cool developments.