(Not being condescending, but oftentimes there are solutions but not in the us. In this case in Germany you have the "wertstoffhof" where you can just bring stuff like that. Cost - if any - depends on location)
Hm you had me at the beginning but lost me at the end.
Me as a non massively rich person does have no influence whatsoever. Don't try to tell me otherwise. I did my part and tried to get the world in a better state yet we have degraded massively globally over the last decades.
Aside what the helpful other comment said, it might as well be something of the neurodiversity spectrum that you don't know of yourself. This may help you a lot understanding yourself and the source of your thoughts.
For me it seemed like yeah thats obviously depression, no, not it, then oh yeah totally hsp and it still might be, and adhs well kinda similar but still not it... And at some point I will know for sure. Well for myself I do but the diagnosis is underway now.
Not that recently I'm afraid. But I remember that I was really curious how the story plays out and while it wasn't groundbreaking it was a satisfying twist end.
Oh, another US issue.
(Not being condescending, but oftentimes there are solutions but not in the us. In this case in Germany you have the "wertstoffhof" where you can just bring stuff like that. Cost - if any - depends on location)