I can feel your loss. Losing your soulmate is devastating. My best advice I can give you is to seek help and talk, either a professional or a friend. Suicide should never be a solution and I‘m sure that your wife wouldn‘t want you to leave this earth when we don‘t know whats on the other side.
Edit: Also, we need you to kick Donnys or MAGAa ass again in four years
You argued shes too old and I argued that she is not that old. Look at all the prior experience she has, and 59 to 67 is far from an age where you can talk about cogintive or physical decline.
Even if she would serve two terms in a row, she would still only be 67 by the time shes finished, so thats still way younger than what Trump or Biden have been during their terms.