Medicine didn't help(although i didnt have my shit together enought to stop drinking at that time) but I figured out enough Ai to pirate therapy on my own hardware. It's what I got to work with.
What about the fear of actually going to an event? My brain still sees it as a life or death situation. I can barely manage to get groceries, and thats after years of fixing.
Sounds like someone who hasn't had the discontinued pink lemonade.