It's really fucking hard. I seriously need to get help, but where would I even look? Last time I opened up to a psychologist caused some of the worst self-loathing I ever experienced, and got me close to ending it all. All I can do is to keep hiding.
To be fair, game programming is very often hot garbage. Most things I run do not respond for a while at startup. How difficult can it be to decouple your threads?
I don't think this is a huge problem with a correctly set up text editor and the right techniques to limit code nesting. Doesn't change my dislike of python tho.
I can drive manual, but I hate it. I don't want to worry about releasing the clutch just right to avoid jerk, so I bought an electric car. Certainly was expensive, but it's infinitely more smooth than a manual transmission could ever be. 23 year old, living in Germany.
A double can represent numbers up to +- 1.79769313486231570x10^308, or roughly 18 with 307 zeroes behind it. You can't fit that into a long, or even 128 bits. Even though rounding huge doubles is pointless, since only the first dozen digits or so are saved, using any kind of Integer would lead to inconsistencies, and thus potentially bugs.
IRL they give you pills that are basically placebo and tell you to go find the one therapist within 200 km that isn't booked out