The worst about ideation for me is that a few days/weeks/months later, I'm almost always thinking "I was willing to do that? Because of XYZ? That would've been so fucking stupid!"
But in the moment your brain can just be like "topping yourself is clearly the only logical solution" and make you actually believe that shit.
Yes I completely understand that. But it also undermines the "give your older laptop a new life with Linux" narrative that's out there at times. It's actually not that easy. I'm happy running Linux but I wouldn't put it on my moms old laptop..
Speakers give weird sound
Media keys don't work
Worst of all: ever since I updated the laptop somehow crashes my router? Like, I don't even know how this is possible, but it's happening.
I'm not an idiot but all the solutions to getting these seemingly basic things to work as intended are extremely contrived.
I used to be very skinny, like 58 kgs at 186. I met my wife when I was 18 and she loves skinny dudes 😂
Regardless, I did feel self conscious about my skininess because I was bullied for it in school. I've both accepted myself, but I also gained about 15kg of muscle by doing starting strength. I'm by no means ripped, but I do feel like I carry myself with more confidence and that goes a long way.
Also, my dude, take this from someone in a 20 year relationship... Looks are neat and all, but finding someone you can actually stand, spend a lot of time and plan a life with is a significantly more worthwhile trait to pursue.
It's also the fault of neoliberal governments around the world for actively looking down on middle class people for not caring as much about the climate, refugees and other matters that you can care about when you actually have enough money to have the time to care about those things.
I think a quick look overseas will show you it's migrants, the queer community, women, and to a certain extent any intellectual. Now where have I seen this before.
I'm not surprised by the male/female gap. The past decade, young men have been told that white men are the worst thing to be. The left has not provided any role models for young men.
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