Mate, he did the nazi salute twice. If it was a still image you might be able to believe that it was an unintentional part of a larger gesture, but the video shows what it is. It's a nazi salute. If you don't want to be compared to nazis, maybe don't do the nazi salute?
It hasn't always been free in the UK. It was introduced after WW2 and has been a much-loved part of our society ever since. We even had a section of the 2012 Olympics opening ceremony about it. The only people who don't like it are right wing arseholes.
I can't begin to understand what you have gone through. The only thing I can say is that there must be a tiny grain of hope that you can somehow live a better life in the future. Please contact the Samaritans, or equivalent in your country. Please try to get help to find a better life for yourself.
Be evil.