Working in retail has made me want to pick a job that never deals with people again, or at least members of the public. I know that dealing with people will be good for me, in that I can become more assertive and less of a people pleaser. HOWEVER, I simultaneously dislike that I'm drawn to 'helping' professions.
I want to be there for other people, but how much am I supposed to give before all I am is just someone who gives to others?
My strengths are that I'm patient, kind, caring and curious. These help me deliver good outcomes for customers. But again, there is only so much I can take. I find myself genuinely not wanting to deal with people anymore, but then I feel like I won't be living up to my potential and utilising my strengths.
So yeah, I think I've figured out why I'm so exhausted despite taking hardly any committed action. When I don't feel like I have purpose in my daily life, that's when I start to spiral.
The car I've driven since I was on my Ps is over 20 years old, and so the brakes aren't as sensitive as newer cars. If I get another car after this one dies, I'm going to have to get used to it!
Three or four years ago, I got my sister a real Oodie, and myself one from Big W. Her oodie is holding up really well, and mine is less so, but is still good enough. I think I wear mine more anyway.
Three days of no caffeine, and I felt the same level of tiredness, minus the "wired-ness". So today I drank a hojicha, which shouldn't affect me too much, I hope.
Maybe it's time to start exercising properly again.
Yay! I'm so excited to see your progress!