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Than you for the thoughtful response. It's encouraging to know that someone understands a bit what this is like.

I agree with the therapy idea. It's hard to pick up the phone. I feel like they bombard me with questions I can't answer the moment I call, but I need to get past that discomfort and try. I feel like I've had a really hard time finding a good therapist. I had one for a short amount of time, but she moved away from my state which, I don't blame her.

It's also scary how much money it can cost, but it's my life. I've got to do it.

It's often hard to be married to someone with PTSD. I haven't had a very good week. In fact, I've not had a very good year. My nephew committed suicide, my parents aren't doing so well, and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I listen, but I don't really talk. And when I do speak, I feel like people don't understand me. If I show even the slightest vulnerability, I get told I'm playing the victim, so I try to keep a cheerful exterior.

The best things I have are: My discord buddies (really the closest friends I've got, which I know is pathetic), and I actually like my job and see what we do as praxis (though it's been harder and harder not to feel like I'm just doing zombie mode).

There's just a deep and profound sadness inside me, and my emotions are so raw that I just curl up like an armadillo.

The only moments I feel alive are when I'm on my longboard or bicycle. I keep thinking I should try to become closer friends with my longboarding pal because otherwise we probably won't talk much in winter. I also reconnected with a friend who I used to be very close friends with back in high school, so I should work on that friendship, too.

It's really nice to have friends who are willing to talk things through. So many problems can be overcome by good communication.

I have an iPad nano

I'd really like to restore it for general use, and also hope to save the existing data since it has some recordings I did in a guy's apartment studio that are the only surviving copies

I'd much rather see restrictions on using algorithms to recommend content, period. I have yet to be grateful for any algorithmically generated feed. It comes across as useless and annoying at worst, creepy and intrusive at best.

Better to have a forum with humans recommending things to each other that can be searched and sorted according to keywords and direct input from the users, according to our preferences.

Sorry, I see in another comment you were looking for a more technical explanation. I feel like I didn't contribute to that at all.

Sir, that is not an employee. That is a pig.

Yes

I used to play it with my nibling. I had no idea it was so awful.

I'm sure "no one could have seen this coming" from such an "upstanding citizen."

No one of course, except anyone who isn't willing to gloss over someone's bigoted beliefs about LGBTQIA people.

300+ bought in past month

What? Who?

Would any of these help? Otherwise like someone else said, music is one of the easiest things to find on the high seas.

I'm in South Dakota, and I worry that my local library could be next. I know the director, and she's an ally. Always has a display with progressive books, including LGBT+ topics. But we could lose that in an instant to the rapid spread of fascism.

I especially worry about youth in places like Gilette. In small conservative towns, places like the library are essential safe spaces, and they're under attack.

Long term, their attack will spread to bigger cities too, if we don't stop them. We need to do whatever it takes to deplatform and disenfranchise Republicans before it's too late.

So what I expect is that people like me who live here will press the issue, and that we'll oust Republicans in Washington because without support at the federal level, we've got no hope here.

The more I think about it, it's somehow an even more appropriate tribute to Cheems that it's not even him in the picture