Gibsonhasafluffybutt @ Gibsonhasafluffybutt @aussie.zone

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The drumkit has many, many boxes.

I've donned the grey trackies everywhere at the moment. We can both be bogans lol

Feel better soon :)

There is a sound that no matter where I am or what I'm doing in the house I recognise it in a millisecond:

The cat hocking up a hairball.

Also it feels like 8pm and it's only 6...

Thank you :)

Was going to go to the gym but will rest tonight instead. I think I'd be pushing too hard if I went tonight.

So:

Feed the cats

Make dinner

Setup drumkit and have a play

Maybe some video games

Cuddle with Fluffball.

Perfect!

That's a really great idea man!

Seconded!

10cc's of motivation please

I get the dirtiest looks when I dare get out of bed to get to the bathroom lol

"forgive me Gibson, the treat slave will be quieter next time" lol

I've got a box of doughnut fries in the fridge waiting for after dinner.

Im being good by waiting but it's tough lol

Sold plan. Might take some inspiration from you.

Thanks everyone for the kind words yesterday. It really means a lot ❤️

Edit: This is the vibe at my house right now

During my sobriety I've been taking something called suboxone. You could liken it to an opiate blocker, though it does have a degree of a sedative effect.

This becomes unnoticeable after a while.

2 months ago I decided to stop taking it, as it was no longer required.

And so it turns out the mild sedation was not so mild at all. I was emotionally numb to a degree that I had forgotten what either positive or negative really felt like.

It has been tough. I have no desire to return to my old life, I have no cravings. I've had a constant underlying headache from various parts of my body being incredibly tense since the beginning.

But coming back into the world full of feelings and a nervous system that's been half asleep for a decade has been really, really hard. Everything feels so intense, both emotionally and physically.

I love it. But it's hard work. I'm stuck in this "reconfiguration" stage and I think I've mindlessly said "man, today has been a hard day" every day for a few weeks now.

I've played the best music I've probably played in my life over the last 2 months. I feel like myself. I'm excited. But it's a struggle. Were I not already somewhat used to dealing with stuff like this by myself, I think I would have run back to the medicine.

No one I know in real life knows about what's happening. I just needed to get it out of my system.

Thanks for listening.

/vent

No need to apologise :) It just made me realise how much I've eased up on my old doom scrolling habit.

I only found out about what's happening from your post.

And to be honest, that works just fine for me.

That nap is a damn good idea

I'll be drumming with you in spirit lol

Have been out of the gym for 2 months-ish. There was a huge billing issue and I couldn't be fucked dealing with it.

All sorted now.

Straight there after work. Bring on the happy chemicals.

Edit: Apparently there's been a huge data breach of Google, Apple, Facebook etc passwords.