Dinodicchellathicc @ Dinodicchellathicc @lemmy.ml

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I scored the legs down to the bone hoping to get some crispy corners and a place to hold some sauce. It had mixed results. I was 6 drinks in by the time the chicken was ready so I wasn't able to really appreciate my own culinary genius.

Maybe thats where i went wrong. Next time I'll crank up the heat.

Dont get we wrong i love my family, but I think we'd all be happier if I lived a couple hours away from them. Close enough to visit on holidays but far enough that they're outta sight and outta mind

I think that's my problem. I'm kinda stuck in a loop of work,sleep,work,sleep. I try to capitalize on my weekends as much as possible but its just so difficult. I work graveyard and on my first day off i have to work that morning. I try to stay up as late as possible but usually I fall asleep around 1500 or so. When I feel like eating a bullet ill head up the mountains and go target shooting. Maybe that sounds counterintuitive but it's a hobby I've had as long as i can remember. I can't really do that rn though because my rifle is broken and I need a gunsmith to fix it. I'd have taken it in but for some reason thinking about it makes me feel really anxious. I can't really think of any reason why either besides the fact that I've just never used gunsmithing services before.

During the workweek I don't ever have more than one drink because it makes what little sleep I get to be not that restful.

You're right about flirting with coworkers. Fortunately I don't think I've done it so much that it's begun to define me. There's this one woman who works with me and she's just so great. I want to ask her out but we have different days off and the nice restaurants I'd take her don't open until mid day- when we have to sleep for work.

I'm not sure if you ever saw the r/RelationshipAdvice subreddit but one the questions asked on almost every thread is "What value do you bring to a relationship?" And I've never been able to satisfactorily answer that question. I mean I'm just an average guy. I can't offer much beyond companionship and trivia about dinosaurs. Even my hobbies aren't relatable for most women. Still I know a wife isn't going to just fall in my lap, it's one of those things you have to work towards.

Anyway I appreciate your reply friend. Lots of sound advice from you.

I feel like I just don't know how to impress her. Part of me says I shouldn't have to try so hard that I'm not acting like myself, and the other part of me says that I need to be an exceptional person to stand out among the other men she might meet.

I think you're right about money not equaling happiness. I never wanted to be a millionaire, i just want enough to entertain my hobbies occasionally.

As far as it being a bad idea to date a coworker- i know it's not great but I don't think she's going to work at my job for much longer. Still I'm aware the consequences of dating a coworker is immediate site reassignment and likely a pay cut. Love isn't free though.

How do you know this?

The apple jim beam wasn't great, switched to makers mark and that got my head spinning and it makes me feel, different, not happy, but almost there, almost happy. There's this girl at work that i just think is the best think since sliced bread and i can't stop thinking about her since I started drinking. I think my subconscious must like her more than my logical brain.

Funny story, she actually suggested that I start drinking whiskey because its a mens drink as opposed to beer or cocktails. I like cocktails though, it's a cathartic ritual i do to make a drink nearly every day. Even though that's what I like, here i am sipping my whiskey just because of what she said. Surely that means something right? Maybe I'm one of those people with a martyr complex. Or maybe I'm just a softey for pretty girls.

Anyway irregardless of all that I hear the bald eagles overhead when i sip this makers mark bourbon. I drink American whiskey because I'm a proud American who drinks American booze.

How's that balcones?

Seattle Isn't known for bbq because it rains all the time. In fact all i know about Seattle is CHOP and that it rains a bunch and that Idaho potatoes are cheap there.

Anyway, do you brush on your hot sauce before bbqinf or after?

As far as i can tell its just a generic sweet bbq sauce.

I think tomorrow might be the fried noodles one. I already have a good spicy sweet and sour sauce, and I'll pair it with some fried chicken thighs if I'm not too drunk to drive to the store tomorrow.

Thanks friend, i think this is a good cookbook. I appreciate it

Aw man, i wish i would've seen this earlier, I'm not happy with how the chicken came out. I think Teriyaki might've been the way to go. Something sweet when I'm feeling bitter would've been good

Trust me friend, it's in my nature to to fuck up. I'll be at the bottom soon enough. And once I hit rock bottom I'll take the cowards way.

Seems like nothing I do is right. Like everything I do is detrimental.

For example I like to speed. I love to hear the roar of my engine on an open road. But also getting a speeding ticket sucks ass. I have a few and they stress me out so bad i struggle to sleep so I'm dog tired at work. I work graveyard so my boss expects me to fall asleep so he can write me up and fite me for cause so he can hire one of his friends and not have to pay me unemployment bc then he'd get in trouble with his boss.

I also like to cook but I live with my parents and they don't like my cooking. Kills my self esteem because I don't actually know if i cook well. I bbq once a week but do other things sporadically. From chicken parm to Chilaquiles. Today i spend $50 on chicken alone, somewhere around 15 lbs and they all went out to lunch today. Breaks my heart truly.

What really sucks is that i finally have some money in my pocket and I finally have some friends in my life, but i don't feel any different. It's like having the carpet pulled out from under your feet. I thought things would be different. I guess the only difference i was destined to make was about bbq sauce. Lol what a joke

I'm a big fan of vinegar flavors but moreso with beef than chicken. I unapologetically use A1 sauce with my bigger steaks. Then again I eat lots of steaks and I feel like A1 just provides a little bit of a flavor difference for it to feel like I'm not eating a whole pound of the same thing.

Then again I recently started pan frying my steaks with butter as opposed to grilling them on a propane grill and i think it's better that way imo.

Im drowning and bbq sauce is my life raft

Thanks homie. I actually quit therapy the last time because my issues were caused by me being broke, alone, and working long hours. My therapist said that my money would be better put towards my bills than therapy. That no amount of coping skills would make me not poor and alone.

Well I got a better job, made friends, and and I'm lightyears ahead of where I used to be, but still i find myself thinking about ending it. Personally I think my past depression kinda fried my brain and I'm permanently broken and probably need meds to be halfass happy.

I don't have enough enough money to move into my own place, and even though that's my goal, that's what I'd define as success, I'm not sure that'd make me happy. I know myself and I know if i lived by myself I'd be lonely and probably overdependant on my work friends. Also I've been trying to date but only halfass sending likes on the apps and just a little bit of flirting with my coworkers. In fact there's this one coworker I have that's i am just illogically attracted to. Only problem is she's out of my league in looks, economical standing, has degrees and she's also older. She's so different from me though, in almost every way. I thought i leaned right politically but jeez she really showed me what it's like to be conservative in Asia.

Idk i think that's just the bourbon talking though. I think about her more than i should, that's for sure. I'd give her everything if she asked even though I know it'd be wrong.

Anyway I'm going to try to sign up for BetterHelp. Honestly I'll have to lie because they reject certain people but i just can't afford anything else rn.

I appreciate you friend. Hope to see you around lemmy soon on a more happy post.

Not sure if anyone cares to know but i decided to go with stubbs bbq sauce. First i put on a dry rub of Pappys dry rub and cooked to 160 internal. Then i followed up with stubbs bbq sauce and finished at 170 degrees internal.

I didn't get down with the apple jim beam so i decided to do shots of Makers Mark cask bourbon. Might have a white claw and long Island iced tea later. Catch me on my plummet to rock bottom over on !cocktails.lemmyworld or occasionally! Cocktail.MidwestSocial

Unfortunately I think I might just have to go back to therapy because even bbqing doesn't cheer me up anymore.

Edit: the chicken has clashing flavors only fixed by getting blind drunk. Don't mix Pappys dry rub and stubbs bbq suace.

Looks great friend. I definitely want to step up my bbq game and i love spicy food. Today i just just went with simple and easy

Bro, didn't you hear the freedom in my voice, see the bald eagles as i entered the room, feel the crack of the liberty bell when you read my name?

I bleed red white and blue, my underwear is the American flag, i have a pet AR-15, and my car sings the national anthem. I am American.

Anyway thanks for the recommendation, i appreciate it friend

Funny story i picked up a bottle of jim beam apple and am smoking my chicken with Applewood. Now ive got the rest of the bottle to keep me company until the end of the day.

I get chronic migraines that are usually triggered by certain foods, stress, lack of sleep, excessive drinking, and I also seem to get them when it's most inconvenient. My go-to fix if i catch one comeing on is to pound an energy drink, take some tylenol and go take a nap. This works everytime as long as i catch it early. Like 30mins into feeling my headhurts but before it progresses into a knife in my brain.

How soon do you medicate after feeling a migraine start?