I wish I could go back to when I first saw the photo and thought it was just an unfortunate angle. I thought he couldn't possibly have done an actual nazi salute
That's a good mindset to have! It shows you want to put the work in, which is great cos youre worth the effort. The more you put into it the more you get out of it, and this should all reduce your pain
Hey mate, this all sounds really tricky. You really don't deserve pain just cos you hurt him, it doesn't work like that. Are you diagnosed with anything? Just cos if you do have depression, BPD etc then that could help you manage your emotions
This comment chain amused me greatly