You are right about seeing the insight, it's happened multiple occasions when I get sick. She has a lot of diagnosed mental health issues. Sticking with it for the children.
After reflecting from the comments, you are right. I need therapy, Thank you. I know that is easier said then done. As I work full time with kids. The comments help, so thank you to all giving me advice as I take it to heart.
https://youtu.be/acyhw4Xing4?si=EZzegI5HdmD6J-Uy