Oh yeah. I remember lots of stupid excuses. Like that I didn't want to be trans because it was hard, or saying that I was a boy because I have a dick. Some of them were really stupid excuses. I once said I didn't want to be a girl because if I was trans I couldn't do sports. I don't even like sports and was never good at them, that was pure cope.
My mother uses that excuse though, same excuse she uses to call me my old name, and to say that I'm a man. Horrible old witch. I know it's an excuse because she doesn't bother correcting herself, she keeps going and is insistent that I'm actually a man and that it can't be changed.
I started transitioning 2 years before the pandemic, but it was still nice to be at home and not having to deal with people in person. Lots of people were and still are not very accepting of my transition.
I'm doing better now. That was before I was on HRT that I tried to do away with them myself. I'm feeling better now, less grossed out and uncomfortable because of how much they've shrank. I still wish they were completely gone though.
If only breaking the egg were that easy, young me was so stubborn and in denial it took going through fuck ton of pain and crippling gender dysphoria to finally make me understand and stop being stupid.
Tucking literally isn't enough for me, I feel dysphoria because I have it, not just because other people see it. I still feel it and know its there. It feels gross, it makes me feel gross. I just wish it was gone 😭
Yes I really want it. I don't really care about wearing these tight looking outfits. I just want to not have these things (my penis and my testicles) hanging between my legs, they're disgusting. HRT has shrank them a lot but I would be much happier if they were completely gone and I had a vagina, or even nothing at all. I'd rather have nothing than have them. I did actually try to cut them off before but I didn't have it in me to get little more than through the surface before backing out from the blood and pain.
Used to think that cis people normally think that they are girls or dislike their genitals, and that it was a phase I would grow out of. I didn't, it just got worse and it was from browsing r/egg_irl and r/traa that made me realize that I was wrong and in-denial.
I want that so badly, even though I pass well enough now, I would love to be cute like that since I'm not super feminine as I am now. If I got the money I would use it to finally get voice surgery and bottom surgery.
Wasn't even a BBEG, was just a random NPC in the party that party members would make fun of for being "a man pretending to be a woman". The character remained in the party through the whole campaign and only served the purpose of being the butt of transphobic humor. I don't even think they had good stats or abilities.
It always felt uncomfortable when they'd do it. I felt unsafe when they would do it. I bet if they saw me now they'd make those same jokes about me directly. Probably also mock me for pronouns. They weren't good people, I don't know why I hung out with them as much as I did. I guess I just wanted to feel like I fit in with others. Well I'm glad I never came out to them even when I found out, that would've been really bad for me, instead we just quietly went our separate ways.
I don't think it's possible, I tried with some people who I thought were close friends but when they found out I was trans they disowned and bullied me.
I used to have a group I'd play DnD with, it was fun. We don't talk anymore though because they are right-wing assholes and would never accept me as a trans girl, since they openly made fun of transgender people. There was an NPC character in one of our campaigns which was a "man dressed as a woman" who would always get mocked for it.
Seeing them banned can feel even more cathartic. The trolls on Lemmy.world don't care if you downvote them, they'll just downvote you back. Some of them probably have multiple accounts and will just downvote you twice, while upvoting themselves. On blahaj and instances like it, there won't be games, they just get banned.
Lemmy.world is a shitty instance, filled with transphobes and trolls. Would definitely recommend moving to a different one. I hear lemmy.blahaj.zone is really nice, they ban transphobes and their apologists on sight.
They may be aggressive in their methods but they are one of if not the most trans friendly servers in the fediverse. Mostly because they ban people for bigotry and apologists of transphobes.
I mean you are a cis person, saying that a space is unfriendly to transphobes because they are a bit on the aggressive side and ban people for bigotry that is real but you don't see or understand why it is bigotry. It really isn't your place to tell us trans people that a space meant for trans people is unfriendly to trans people.
Lemmy.world sucks these days, their moderation is poor, and they seem to allow all kinds of bigots and trolls. Someone told me they believe strongly in freedom of speech, this is what it gets them.
If going with lemmy.zip I recommend staying out of most of their local communities, a mod there who runs a good amount of the local communities on lemmy.zip is a transphobia apologist, maybe it won't bother some people or won't be an issue to them but generally I find that hanging out in communities run by people like that doesn't end well when they eventually use their mod powers to push an agenda.
Blazingtransfem98 @ Blazingtransfem98 @discuss.online Posts 4Comments 143Joined 10 mo. ago
Oh yeah. I remember lots of stupid excuses. Like that I didn't want to be trans because it was hard, or saying that I was a boy because I have a dick. Some of them were really stupid excuses. I once said I didn't want to be a girl because if I was trans I couldn't do sports. I don't even like sports and was never good at them, that was pure cope.