Thanks for the kind words/wishes yesterday, and low for reaching out
I just want to clarify in case I've sent the weekly message, I'm okay. Well I'm about 30% okay, but I'll get through it.
I left because over the last few months I've really just felt like a burden pretty much any time I say anything. It's not entirely because of what I say, but I think more often because I realise that everyone else, whether here or not, has much larger issues, while I'm off complaining about minor things in approximately 7,000 worse per comment. I tried to fix that by cutting down on what I say, how often I'm here, and by trying to help other people when I could, or otherwise try and be openly empathetic (I used to hold off because I thought that "aw I'm sorry such and such is happening to you. Hope it stops happening soon!" sounded too much like a hollow statement, despite finding it very helpful when people would reply to my troubles similarly). But usually I ended up figuring out a way to make it about me, which was pretty awful of me, and I almost deleted my account a few weeks ago when I realised. But I took a little break instead
The break doesn't seem to have helped, I think I'm just genuinely shit at anything that's not a 1 sided dialogue. I hate that, and to be honest, kind of despise myself for it. Probably a side effect of not having many friends when I was younger so not developing proper social skills, and being in care for so long, where everything very much is one sided and hollow. But in any case, it's a deficit that I realise I have, and can't seem to be able to fix. But I think because of that, I'm not a very good person to interact with, so until I do work it out, I just don't think I do anyone any good being around here
But I do sincerely appreciate the help and advice everybody here had given me. You are all amazing people, and I'm sorry for the troubles I've caused
I'll be back one day, but I don't think I should come back until I know I can do better. I actually think that may come naturally once I move out and into an environment more conducive to good mental helath
I can't even find it in any cupboards, I'm beginning to wonder if they just don't have one? I mean, everyone has a taster right? They have a microwave, kettle and air fryer so I'm not dealing with time travellers from the 1300s here...
Ok ok ok why do people lay their houses out differently to mine? 😭😭 I can't find the bloody toaster! (/J but fr I seriously can't find the toaster and nobody else is home)
Yoo that's amazing peeler! You did it! Personally, I'd stick at the current level for maybe a few days to a week, but that's just me. Perhaps you might be one of the people that needs an ever increasing (but doable) challenge to stay engaged?
Wtf, this Twitter becoming x thing is for real? I swear every single time I hear about what that childike billionaire is doing I think it's either satire or fake... And then it actually happens
Do have to give him credit though, that was very efficient
🇦🇺Baku @ Baku @sh.itjust.works Posts 0Comments 79Joined 2 yr. ago