It's really hard to give you any advice if we don't know you. It'd really require a longer conversation talking about you and your life, the situations you've been in, and so on.
If you'd like, we could have that conversation, just tell me.
If you don't know Lisp, it'd probably take too long for me explain (i.e. I don't want to). Basically, macros let you rewrite your code arbitrarily, which would have the same effect as arbitrarily modifying the stack.
This sequence of events is what happened to me, and the othering caused me to isolate myself and feel inadequate, and the isolation and feeling of being inadequate caused me to try to improve so I'm not inadequate anymore, which finally resulted in much larger growth than anyone else I grew up with.
Now, the question of course is, would I have grown even more if I hadn't been othered and then isolated myself as a reaction...
What is it, othered or isolated? Can't really be both, if you are othered, you're inside society and interacting with it, if you're isolated, you can't be othered because you're isolated and there's no one there to "other" you.
Yeah that's what I meant with syntactically. You could act as if in Lisp arguments to functions are pushing on the stack, and functions are removing them and pushing the result back.
Isn't psychopathy already including this "new" pattern? The psychopaths I've known have never been "overt" psychopaths, they've always disguised themselves as nice and considerate.
Yep, did this, looked great and I loved it. Botw modded was a great experience. Just skipping all those unskippable cutscenes was worth it already. (Teleport animations, sign repair dialogue, etc etc)
Real experience is more important than words. If you constantly feel bad because of real experiences, chances are high that you are actually bad. Having negative experiences is not a guarantee that you're bad, but if you consistently have more than others, it might likely be a sign of being bad. Overemphasizing is also something bad.
The communication shouldn't be that "you're actually well", because it's simply not true. If you overemphasize negative experiences, you have a problem, you aren't well. The communication should instead be that it's ok to have that problem, there are ways to solve this problem, and it's possible to become good (again). Because that's also true and doesn't depend on deluding yourself.
Most games do not even have official modding support, Minecraft included. Most are only moddable because they use some interpreted programming language somewhere in their game, which people found ways to read and inject with their own code.
Sounds to me like you're usually distracted and now have time to be alone with your thoughts for a while with nothing else to do. Might be more impactful for you, but that's why many people keep busy and dislike downtime.
It's really hard to give you any advice if we don't know you. It'd really require a longer conversation talking about you and your life, the situations you've been in, and so on.
If you'd like, we could have that conversation, just tell me.