Apathy Tree @ ApathyTree @lemmy.dbzer0.com

I aim to be more human. I aim to be less apathetic as a human. Apathy grows

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Got my tubes tied when I was 27 (no kids no interest).

So nope, not in the slightest.

Jim Jeffries - vibrating egg - a cautionary tale

https://www.ebaumsworld.com/videos/jim-jefferies-the-egg-story/82523082/

What sucks is when you end up super frustrated getting everything to fit, so you rip apart the drawer and put everything back in all nice and wow would you look at that you can fit everything and close it easily!

For two days. Tops.

It looks like a fat conure.

Two options means it’s a 50/50 chance, totally worth a shot!

I would love the life of a house pet as long as I can play video games instead of sleeping all the time.

We just collectively need to convince our new overlords that it’s enrichment and just let me keep it I already have it, and I’ll be totally friendly and compliant whenever you want, I can pause, it’s cool.

They -can- do that yes. Whether or not they will choose to, however, is anyone’s guess.

What’s your favorite hobby?

We had a little dive diner sort of place in town here that was bought out by a Hispanic family. Cool, do your thing la familia.

They chose not to update the menu, from boring white people breakfast food to literally anything else. Problem is they had no fucking clue how to make boring white people breakfast food.

So corned beef hash was just chopped bacon. White gravy was grainy and gross and clearly not made with enough browned oil/butter. So on and so forth. It was just not at all good, and they folded after a few months because yeah you just gave away the bacon (literally).

So while yes often that’s the case, it really needs to be trained up as an ongoing thing and not just an assumption lol

I’m not sure exactly what you want me to say about it.. I didn’t feel the anecdote required full backstory, but here ya go:

I worked there years ago for a whopping 6 months, mostly removed from the work those migrants were doing. The owner of the place was a Chinese dual citizen with close ties to her homeland (she went to China 4 times while I was there). I observed these things happening, but frankly I have no idea if it was a legit program or human trafficking. I talked to most of the people that came through in that time (about 2/mth via text with google translate, because I don’t know enough mandarin to do it manually, but they were excited to talk to a native resident even through translate), and they all seemed happy and frankly excited for the opportunity to be there, and had free reign to travel onward to big cities when work came up in their social sphere, which they all did as soon as possible because I’m in a small town.

When I say that it’s probably illegal immigration, what I assume the owner was doing is signing work visas for people to bring them over totally legally, and then just not disclosing that they moved on to other employers after a month. Or maybe the visas were transferred to the new employer, idk. None of my business.

Many years prior to that job, when I was in highschool, I worked in industrial agriculture with half documented half undocumented Hispanic workers who were also happy to be there doing what they were doing, and the only thing any of them wanted to change was their legal status (they got paid same shit federal minimum wage as I did, which I know because my dad was the site manager). They were super sneaky, too, and didn’t speak English with any non-migrants at work.. except me, despite being management’s offspring. Cuz I worked hard to keep up with them, and I’m cool and wouldn’t rat them out to management as speaking English while I muddle through terribly broken Spanish to keep the front up for them (plausible deniability is valuable at work). I’m chill with making management work harder to employ immigrants if that’s what they want (which they clearly did), but I’m also pretty chill with illegals, because the process to be legal is truly grueling at usually 20+ years.

So.. none of my business. If anyone had ever said or even mildly indicated they weren’t happy with the arrangement, I’d have made effort to do something about it, but they didn’t and I’m not here to ruin lives over speculation.

My fish play with laser pointers, and the fish in the live bearer tank tend to “play chase” (it’s not aggression or mating behavior, because there’s no fin nipping or flashing, and they don’t flare), but idk if that would be a thing in the wild. Probably is.

Play is low-risk survival skill practice, so it makes sense that ambulatory creatures would do it.

I in the last 4-ish months played through yonder, biomutant, ni no kuni 1+2, ff7 remake (#1), balan wonderland, several Lego games, star ocean integrity and faithlessness, tandem, all the cat quest games, several “tales of” games, and a buttload more while I still had the ps+ subscription (which expired in like… August? I won’t count those cuz I had no life at the time. Still don’t but It was worse then.)

My big push at the moment is going through some of the ps3 era titles I’ve never played. I have so many games I buy and just sit on for years.. I probably shouldn’t do that, but I buy used so it’s cheaper.. But those unplayed games are mostly super long story focused games, so they take a hot minute to get through. I have a few upcoming tales of games, which I now own most of, star ocean, valkeria chronicles, and all the final fantasy games I never slogged through the overwhelming tutorial on and thus haven’t played.

Any games I finish, I enjoy enough to finish. I gave up pushing through bad media long ago because there’s so much more out there. I’ve been really into big story games with minimal or easy combat, but I also really like the short and simple games that you can get through entirely in 10 hours.

Tandem was a really cute one that stuck out. I got it purely because it was inexpensive. It’s a fairly short puzzle game where one character walks through a top-down view and the other is a side scroll view. You have to swap back and forth to use them both to solve puzzles. It’s not super difficult, but it is satisfying in difficulty.

I’ve been using it for almost a year now.

It.. works well enough. I really have no complaints, tho it does have some cookies, which I could do without (I don’t care to track how many trees I’ve contributed to planting, and I’d like a no tracking option) but that’s a pretty small complaint when I clear cookies frequently anyway. If you use ghostery or some other extension that auto-rejects cookies and randomizes data for those it can’t reject, you’ll be fine.

The sponsored listings are clearly labeled, the results typically come up fine. There do seem to be more sponsored results than there used to be, though, so.. something to be aware of.

It’s not perfect but it’s a lot better than google, and they use the money for trees (I did look into that claim and it’s true as far as I can tell)

If only it were just hole in the wall places..

The local higher end places like sushi and hibachi joints are also staffed almost entirely by Chinese migrants around me. One of the places I worked for a while even had a weird arrangement to get people into the country, probably illegally (they didn’t stay with the company for more than a month before moving on to a bigger city, so I’m sure this was some sort of illegal immigration operation.. none of my business.)

Honestly I have to disagree with consoles being ease of use these days, especially if you like really long sessions.

I have to restart games or reboot the console way more often than I feel should be necessary at this point.

And installing from discs takes forever if you even do physical, but then you need the disc in to run it for whatever dumbfuck anti-piracy reason. I won’t pay for digital, at that point you might as well be on pc, it’s the same thing, and since this generation is probably the last with physical media, I’m out..

This guy reminds me of the framed poster in my bedroom that I bought on eBay for $10 when I was like 15.

Plus you are absolutely surrounded by decaying corpses, and highly likely to get some sort of nasty infection as a result. All it would take is a scratch that an insect lands on.

Not a fun way to go, gangrene and sepsis..

It’s funny to me, but one of my highest ratios was on a torrent that never even finished. It was active for many months stuck at 98%, and the seed never came back. So many people started that one, downloaded what was available, then scrapped the whole thing and found another option..

I’d uploaded ~500gb of a 6gb torrent.

That’s the joy/pain of wanting stuff nobody has available..

I’m a big proponent of suicide in humane ways. I mean if you really honestly do actually want to die, at least do it in a way that doesn’t irreparably traumatize people around you.. including whomever has to clean you off the sidewalk.. they don’t need that.

If I have any say in the matter myself, I want to go with neutral gas asphyxiation when my medical state gets too bad to keep existing. Nitrogen would do it, but I’d probably go out with helium. It’s wasteful sure, like balloons, but I’d have a great time on the way out. Build myself a positive pressure chamber for my head and just ride the silly on out. Ideally with friends to silly with me.

Because it’s never if you die, it’s when and how, and if we know how to choose that, what’s honestly wrong with choosing that? I don’t believe in higher powers, just you here now and those you care about.. and if you have a valid reason to want to check out, nobody can stop you, but we can make sure we let them go supportively (including just giving those people some damned support first.. most people who get assisted suicide meds never take them, they just want the option)

When I get decent sleep, I often lucid dream. I didn’t really practice, I’m just usually aware that I’m dreaming (maybe because I’m on drugs to suppress nightmares, so I’m just really aware of dreams).

I have a dream town I frequent, it’s.. usually interestingly mundane though. I don’t need excitement often, just things I can’t do in real life, like taking stuff I want (collectibles!!), playing free at the arcade, eating free in fancy places, drinking free in the nice socializing bar, breathing underwater or flying sometimes if it fits the exploration..

It’s a really consistent sort of place that just grows over time, as more places are added and incorporated as welcoming spaces to explore. There’s even a glass water garden/aquarium/pool that reminds me of some final fantasy shit. And recently a massive underground transit structure was added on that has high-speed shuttles to different large attractions, and a whole new residential tower (for some reason I have a room on the 4th floor, it might be a college dorm), so that was an excellent confusing dream to have for several days.

There’s a house in it that’s sort of my landing pad. A mix of a lot of places I’ve lived or been that just keeps growing over time. It’s got dozens of spaces to explore that mix in things I want and things I know, and just some creepy huge empty spaces that will probably get filled in later but are just full of weird junk I haven’t unpacked at the moment.

I like to just explore the town and surrounding areas, and do things with random people. I don’t really do that in life anymore, so. I’d love to build it in VR but I have no idea how to do that. It seems perfectly suited for it.

I used to get a lot of false awakenings when I pushed too hard to control the story or environment, and I found those to be wildly unpleasant (nightmare reasons), so I don’t exert much control now. I can, but it’s more fun to go with the fantastical and let the adventure play out, fully aware that this new space I’m dreaming about is going to be a recurring space I can explore again in different ways later.