Alice @ Alice @beehaw.org

Unfortunately alive. USAmerican, gay

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I'm just curious how this would differ from automatic moderating tools we already have. I know moderating actually can be a traumatic job due to stuff like gore and CSEM, but we already have automatic filters in place for that stuff, and things still slip through the cracks. Can we train an AI to recognize it when it hasn't already been put into a filter? And if so, wouldn't it hit false positives and require an appeal system, which could still be used to traumatize people?

That's a good question. I kinda hope they didn't, because that's a stupid amount of money to spend to punish yourself for an unorthodox opinion.

Back when I was an active user, I learned a lot of people only take in one piece of media and nothing else. I'm sure the site culture has shifted since then, but I remember a ton of entries exaggerating how extreme or unique basic tropes in My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic are.

A lot of tropes were also constantly referred to as "anime tropes" and people suggested Japanese names for them when there was nothing about them that was unique to anime or Japanese culture.

I don't care for cannibalism but the second bullet doesn't sit right with me. I always wanted to be composted. My family will hate that, but I don't think it's their choice.

I remember seeing someone get a callout post on Twitter for saying they don't see an ethical problem with cannibalism if it's consensual. That's all they said, and they got dogpiled so hard that they apologized and went to therapy for their "unnatural thoughts", and the callouts continued.

Unless several Twitter users plan to give them unrestricted access to their corpse soon, I don't see why that's callout-worthy.

Christmas eve: lift weights then go to my crappy retail job

Christmas: visit my family and try not to cry

I'm sorry you're going through this. 💔 I hope someday you get to spend the holidays with people who deserve your company.

At least they get to kill their customers

Thank you ❤️ holidays are always stressful for me but at least they're almost over

I'll be honest, the customers are far from my biggest problem with retail. :( I want electronics that work, carts it's not easy to cut yourself on, an accurate inventory system, and more realistic expectations for how many items I can move in an hour. At least occasionally customers are nice, but policies are never nice.

Actual answer from me is deli work. I enjoyed taking inventory, making sure all the meats were dated and wrapped correctly, pre-slicing the sandwich meats and veggies before customers showed up... Very meditative.

But no one could stick to the menu, they all had to order weird shit like hot capocollo and rare London broil on a sandwich together. There was one woman who ONLY ordered weird sandwiches where each meat required thorough slicer sanitation between uses because they were all rare or heavily seasoned. Taking apart and sanitizing the slicer three times for one sandwich while the line got longer and longer.

Rough 😔 customers are huge bitches. So you don't care enough about Christmas to shop in advance, but you care enough to yell at me??

I just find this season depressing, I don't know. I've seen shipping out so many candies and electronics made by slave labor while the radio sings about peace and love. Most of these tacky plastic trinkets are going to landfills or the ocean. Most of these companies are complicit in genocide, or other violence against the global south. I want to do something radical but I've seen other people of my status martyr themselves and change nothing.

I know I'm a downer and my friends are tired of it. I was turned away by my first choice of a therapist, my second choice doesn't work on either of my days off, and the only other therapist available through my job wanted me to sign a really sketchy contract. 😐

I really can't wait for Christmas to be over. I know it won't fix the world, it'll just make it easier for me to ignore the world, and I know that's bad. But I'm only making the world worse by being a downer about it.

That's shockingly bad, wow

When I was younger, I told my therapist that I kept accidentally saying insulting things and offending my friends without realizing it. She didn't ask for any examples and I didn't think to give any.

She told me that my friends should understand that being homeschooled and autistic, I'm going to miss some social norms, and if I explain what I meant and ask a nicer way to put it, they'll be able to explain.

Yeah this just made my friends really mad because I wasn't saying anything rude, they were just picking fights. Real "I like pancakes", "so you hate waffles?!" type conversations. It took me an embarrassingly long time to figure out why it wasn't working.

ETA I think my sister convincing me not to go to college was worse advice, but that's not much of a story. Spoiler I didn't go to college.

Pretty rough. I'm overworked what with the holidays. My job is doing this stupid thing where they've decommissioned our handhelds and want us to use android phones with proprietary software. But each phone is locked to one specific user, it can't be used when that person is clocked out, and there aren't enough to go around. So basically every day we have tons of people using each other's equipment, doing work under their names, wrecking their metrics, and praying that person doesn't clock out while they're working on an order.

Also if that person starts working on another device, anyone else working under their name gets kicked out. For some reason all the team leads have 2-3 phones registered to them, but only one can be used to take orders at a time. They can ostensibly be used for other tasks, but they keep getting left for us who do grocery orders.

All this buildup to explain why my boss committed fraud in my name. Someone needed a phone, my phone was in the store, so she clocked me in so they could use it, forgot to delete it later and never told me. I just happened on it a day before it went to payroll. I spent my whole day off trying to get HR on the phone to fix it.

My mom's car broke down too, and my brother had a ton of medical stuff to do this month. So the rest of my days off were spent on that. I don't live at home, this was quite out of my way. I'm happy he got everything he needed and is recovering well, it's just been a lot for me to deal with.

I feel like I never relax. My house is a huge mess, I have flies, I don't keep a consistent gym schedule anymore and I'm constantly behind on cooking. But I have no rest or recreation to show for it. I managed to see Sonic yesterday and I think that's the longest amount of time I've allotted for fun in a long time.

Next week will be better. Gonna survive Christmas and clean the house, then maybe I can have company and we can have fun and I won't feel like life is just a slog

ETA oh yeah, the only queer therapist I could find turned me down due to my availability. I've tried a bunch of cishet therapists but I have to explain so much to them, and none of them ever fully believe I'm not just "catastrophizing" about being queer in the southern US. I think I'm giving up on treating the depression, it was a stupid idea

Why would anyone want to be reincarnated? The world is descending into fascism and it won't be liveable much longer anyway. When I die it better be fucking permanent.

I didn't mean them specifically. I assume the reason they're not sure is because they've heard people call it a myth before, as have I. And I think it's shitty that people do that.

Why do people think it's an urban legend when women describe how they've been medically and sexually abused? 😐

There are no jobs in my area besides factory work that will pay me as much as Walmart. I doubt I could even make pennies off art, it's all being replaced by AI.

I agree about not having friends anymore. I've always craved human connection but I'm going to get over it.

Disclaimer that I don't believe in ghosts, but in fiction at least, I think the usual implication is that a ghost is someone who hasn't passed on correctly. A few people have brought up unfinished business already, but even in stories that don't bring that up, ghosts are often people who died horribly, prematurely, and/or violently. Sometimes they're explicitly under a curse keeping them from moving on.

Basically, the circumstances of their existence are wrong, and they're stuck due to forces beyond their control. That's kind of the tragedy of being a ghost; they're often a whittled-down, corrupted version of their living self.

A straight guy tried to hit on me in my DMs once and it took forever. He kept saying he had to tell me something and then saying something like "never mind, I'm too shy" or "I changed my mind". I'd seen him at work earlier that day and I told him I was planning on gaming when I got home, so obviously I was AFK, but every time I took a while to reply he'd be like "?" "where did you go?" before I'd remind him that I had other shit to do, which just stretched the conversation out even longer.

I've been told this was a dick move but I rejected him before he even got to the point because I couldn't watch him do this to himself over someone who's only into girls.