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Swedish melodic black metal has moments like that. The melodies are so nice and lift the spirit, while the lyrics are about hating everything and wating to die

About two years ago I stared into the void. I didn't have any real problems in life, but my job was boring as hell and my colleagues were always constantly negative, depressing and whined about everything, which affected my mindset after months upon months of that.

Freshly out of university, the job (which I couldn't leave due to contacts) sucked out my every hope and dream of having a fulfilling career where I'd have an impact on the world. I felt so useless. To make matters worse I fell in love at that time.

One day I vaguely felt bad, got home, sat down and started crying like crazy. Life felt so meaningless. Not my life specifically, but life as a concept. I could change my life, but to what purpose? I sincerely felt regret for ever having been born and existence felt like a cruel joke, it was all vanity, pain, and at the end you die without even feeling the relief of it being over since you would be gone. It was a feeling of meaninglessness where even doing something about it was as meaningless as doing nothing.

The next day I had another crying session, didn't eat anything the whole day as well. And in the evening I remembered how Seneca wrote that nothing bad happens to good people since those "bad" moments are the only time we get to show our virtues. Didn't really fix the basic problem of meaninglessness, but it did reinvigorate me. Reading Camus' "Myth of Sisyphus" also got me to handle the absurd better. But the moment I got out of the whole ordeal altogether was about 8 months later when I realized that I was very much pushed to such a state by my colleagues, and that I yearned for some sort of warmth and comfort from others. But nobody has really ever shined for me, I realized that I had to be my own light and that I should not do things to earn other's approval, but for me (this does not mean being selfish, according to Platonic and Aristotelian ethics, doing morally good deeds is for the benefit of the doer). I've been fine since then.

When we got internet for the first time when I was a kid, and I immediately went to the cartoonnetwork website because it was shown on TV between cartoons.

I also remember that there was a vote held between a number of cartoons, and the one to receive the most votes would be shown 24h after the vote. I voted for my favorite one (some girl that secretly travels with some aliens on missions after school or something) and I realized that I could just vote again. So I voted like 100 times haha. Don't know whether it was my doing, but that cartoon was being shown the whole day after the voting ended.

Insurance companies are the worst, I can't believe that they're even a thing. You give them money just in case you need some in an emergency, and they do their very best not to give you anything. The entire business model is: "You give us money, and we keep it".

Anarchism is a lack of hierarchy where nobody has power over another. If you get a job, you need to tell the state. You need to pay taxes to the state. If you buy something, the seller must have a bill to register the transaction with the state. If you want to give your property (like a house) to someone, you must tell the state. Every significant transaction between two induviduals needs to go through the state, otherwise that very state will use force (police) to punish you. We don't live in a state of anarchy as thought of by political anarchism.

Even if the "state" is a cooperative project, it still lies above you in the hierarchy and has power over you, that's why we don't live in a state of anarchy.

When I got that message I just refreshed the page and tried logging in again and it worked.

Assimil courses, fsi courses, language transfer, Clozemaster (app), Pimsleur.

I second this. I did the Greek course and it was absolutely phenomenal.

You have a space in your URL btw.

Assimil courses are always a good choice

While reading Epectitus definitely helped (externals - out of your control; reactions - your choice, things don't bother you, you bother yourself), and telling myself that I gain nothing out of anger (mostly lose from it), I ran out of fucks to give. Someone's blocking the way? Just wait until I can pass them. My delivery is running late? Whatever, it'll get there. I left the window open during heavy rain and everything is wet? Close the window and mop it.

In a world where nothing really matters, giving your undying attention to stupid things like these is just absurd. Who's watching your reactions so that you have to put on a show?

But as someone said, it takes practice. Being mindful, present, realizing that you're getting angry, and then consciously thinking "ah whatever" and accepting it. Difficult at first, but as with any skill, the more you do it, the easier it gets.

Sure, adults have the right to smoke if they want

Even if it forces everyone in the vicinity to inhale that crap? Smoking has one distinct feature in that it harms not just the user, but everyone around as well.

Seriously, chats and servers previously being as far away from the thumb as possible was a terrible design. The new one is much cleaner and simpler imo

I actually did this once. My USB was on /dev/sda instead of sdb and I didn't bother to check. It took me like 2 days to fix it because you can't just delete partitions and start over normally, it changes some flags on your drive that you need to manually reset for them to be usable again. Fun times.

It creates such a calming atmosphere. The grey sky during the day, the darkness setting earlier and the white sky far into the evening when it's snowing is so therapeutic for me for some reason. It gets me in a state where it's enough just to be alive.

And the biting cold is such a pleasant sensation, especially when going for a run. And there are no mosquitos. Winter is all I like manfested in nature.

I listened through all of the songs by Seven Spires and Sascha Paeth's Masters of Ceremony, but Naglfar - Way of the Rope is in my head often these days

We had to do a presentation on whatever in computer class in the first year of secondary school, and I chose Linux for no apparent reason. I just kinda knew that it existed and thought what the hell.

My 'researching' led me to see what Linux offered, to learn about FOSS, listen to Stallman, and I loved tinkering so I made a dual boot (and thus learned about partitions, boot flags and such) and never looked back. Even when I installed linux on my newly acquired PC a few days ago and found out that since the kernel version 5.13 some motherboards receive failure on all USB 3.0 ports and I have to fuck around with that why can't you just fucking work right away for once

In his two dialogues that deal directly with love, he excludes sexual relations either implicitly or explicitly. In "Sympsium" love (eros) allows you to reach an understanding of the form of the 'Beautiful', and love creates goodness, and people can only 'give birth' (besides physically, also mentally by creating things) in goodness, so that's why they seek it, to create and achieve some immortality through their creations.

In "Phaedrus" he explicitly tells how one of the three parts of the soul (mind) is a wild horse that pulls the soul in lust, and reason (the charioteer) then proceeds to pull back with all its might as the emotional part of the soul goes towards sex, as love is there to remind the soul of beauty, which is the souls nourishment, not to "mount [others] like an animal". That's basically the tl;dr of his writings on love in those two dialogoues.

Platonic solids are solids Plato mentioned in "Timaeus".

Redguards are from Yokuda, Nords are from Atmora, Imperials come from the Nedes and Bretons are a Nede/Aldmer mix. Each human race has a distinct origin, what's controversial about that? They're 'human' in the sense that they're not Mer or Beastfolk.

But Nords have identical buffs/debuffs according to that sheet.

Nowhere in your link is it said that "knowledge and efficiency" was lost by getting rid of the farmers deemed "kulaks". What is mentioned though is that grain was being massively taken out of Ukraine, and the borders being sealed so that starving Ukranians wouldn't leave, and that even after the famine started, the USSR kept exporting grain rather than use it to feed the people.

The holodomor was a targeted weakening of Ukranians that could've been prevented if Stalin wanted it. Painting it as a story of commies taking away from the people that became rich because they were the best at what they do and that caused a collapse is sickening, and I really hope you try and reconsider whether the source where you got that is worth your attention and what were the motives behind twisting something as horrific as the holodomor into a cartoon story about evil commies and honest efficient workers.