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There was a lot of talking done from my side, it never ammounted to anything... she's probably in menopause now (we're not that old, I'm 38, she's 39) cuz I haven't seen her buy any pads in about a year.
She gets to decide everything anyhow, when where, how. We haven't had sex in about a year now, since I fuckin' gave up initiating anything after being rejected time after time. She seems fine with that... she hasn't initiated anything thus far, and I just masturbate... which is getting kinda annoying to be honest... I can really see why people start cheating now.
Plus, she's like 300 lbs now... yeah, she was always fat, but not obese. She knows it's not healthy, we've hired nutricionists, spent god knows how much on them, she does the diet about a month and then just gives up "fuck, too many cucumbers, olives, whatever in this diet, I just can't take it! it tastes like shit! i give up!" 😒. I'm just really at a point where I don't even give AF. I just take care of our kid (cuz she sure as hell can't with that weight on her) and that's about it.
We've used toys before, I am all up for that, in fact, toys were my idea, but she pisses herself now verry often (like even when sitting or coughing) and she blames the toys (they are large, not giant, but larger than what a normal penis would look like) for her pissing on herself (it's the weight... she knows it, and I do as well, but she won't admit it 😒), so, toys are a no go for about 2 years now.
I can tell she has less fun, she just goes through the motions. Last time that happened (us having sex) was about a year ago. When I noticed that, I said to myself, this is the last fucking time, this shit is not what I signed up for! Great head does not compensate for having a living corpse in bed and having to use lubricants to get you wet! Fuck this!
I have talked to her about this, she either denies it completely or admits a small portion of it, and then blames me for not getting her in the mood... what in the AF am I supposed to do, I have litelarly tried everything there is, scented candles, weed, loooong foreplays, music, dinner before it all, combos of all of the above and other things as well... I just gave up, I don't have the strength or the energy on top of everything else (work, taking care of the kid, taking care of the household, cuz she doesn't do shit around the appartment, except cook from time to time, I do everything else - vacuum, clean bathroom/toalets, fix shit, fix the car, rearange things if needed, etc.)... I just can't, I worn out 😞.
About the last part, I have no objection to wearing sexy underwear, but she has to say that... I can't pull every word out of her mouth with pliers.